BEAT YOU

If you can't beat em,...get even...

SURRENDER

And I Will go down with this ship,

And I won't put my hands up and surrender,

There will be no white flag above my door,

I'm in love,and always will be...

THAT IS ALL I NEED

I don't need any stuck-up girl to comfort me, or by fool's who only care about themselves... 

all I need is 'faith',loyalty, and trust that's what I can only get from god and my family...

I'VE REALIZED

Now I have realized that What I have done all this time is partly wrong... I don't have much time left before... and Now I realized how important they are and thank to god that brought them to me, "Alhamdulillah", I got to spend more quality time with them instead of  hogging with my friends, I have also realized that the 'item' that took so dearly should be more dearest, and I should practice more on my experience rather than my academics, I realized that academia is a tad less important for what I have been looking for. Academic is just a backup or some spare part for me to succeed the real deal is the ''experience'' I realize that I need skill to practice. Time goes fast as usual and forced me to catch up with it... The stairway to freedom is buillt, the path of glory is set , all that is left now is to cross,climb,run,walk,jump,leap etc. it....

.................................................................................

songs curretnly into...

My Chemical Romance- Kill all your friends

The All American Reject- Can't take it

BOY & GIRL

Boys and girls?

They are like two different entities...boys have that,the girls have these,girls have that boys have this... But No matter how much different they are, both of this kind will met up and unite. Well that's life, but they also blame each other from their misfortune, All I have to say is...boys will be boys and girls will be girls...

ACTING,IS A DEADLY JOB...

Heath Ledger,He was so disturbed and dove too far into the character that he ended up dealing with serious sleeping problems and depression. It's funny... Jack Nicholson who played the same role had the same problems except his symptoms were minor...He acted the really opposite of himself,which makes it's like... he is crazy...just like the role he is playing...

THE DEVIL WITHIN

DEVIL: Hello.

ME: You...I thought you was dead...

DEVIL: Remember...I am you...

ME: I thought I get rid of you...

DEVIL: I Exist As The Ultimate Obstacle That You Must Strive To Overcome.

               Even if you come to hate me because of it... That what's being as an obstacle is all           

               about.

ME: It won't work for a freak...

DEVIL: Are you telling me..that you gonna protect the other traitor.

ME: I don't know...

DEVIL: Ha...that's funny... cus I don't know what's gonna happen to you either.

ME: All those things for nothing.

DEVIL : Enjoying your life...

                You imagine what it's like listen to people die...

ME: Look,take it out with them. They kill you first, They made you....like this...

DEVIL: They all just a mad dog. I could take care of the others.

ME: If I tell you...Would you let me go...

DEVIL : Can't hurt your chances...

ME : Them...

DEVIL :* picks up a piece of coin from his pocket*

ME : But you said!

DEVIL : I said it can't hurt any chances.              

DEVIL: You live,you die...

              *Flip coin*

DEVIL: You a lucky man... 

               *flip coin*

DEVIL :They're not...

ME : Who?

DEVIL : Your friends...

                                                        * ! *

TEACHER?

You know cupcakes? Well I am reminded by the teachers day...The day that every teacher is happy...each cake I gave have something written on it. I remember only this one...

''Like teacher, like friend''.

come to think of it, I think it was you.

INSPIRED?

Why I get so inspired when P.E.Maybe because Mr.Kamarul tells a story about his life that fascinates me.Besides that each story I realize has it's own moral values.Today he talked about sports but sliding in some few family and emotional tips.One of his tellings made me realize that I should spend more quality time with my parents and siblings.He told that only one more year and we will be missed by them.We will went out to university we didn't get to see our parents,Then we will start to work,and we couldn't see our parents also.Then we have our own family and we couldn't see them also.Those who thinks their parents to controllable of yourself or just to busybody and couldn't mind their own business should think twice.Only one more year and you will rarely see them.You will be free.But is being free is a good choice.Well for a while it is but each day the missing part will start to prevail. So I have this chance from god and use it wisely. I can't thank you enough...I am just an artist whom inspiration is lacking.

A TRIBUTE TO HEATH LEDGER

BAD NEWS

Something bad is about to happen...I can feel it.

But I will try to create my own luck and bring out the light.

STUPID

You guys are just plain stupid...!

DON'T WORK TOO HARD

To me everything I said,it is like a promise.Whenever I said something that mean I will try and accomplish it.Unlike you,you just unworthy,idiotic,psychofreak,lunatic pimp.How much it wounds me if someone doesn't know what will happened next instead of now,blinded by the lies.I will strive for perfection.The other day I was reading my horoscope and it says that ''You don't care what other people think,but they better care what you think"!!Funny though it kinda suitable for me though. Just now a Prefect Meeting was held,and Miss.Salwani gave a little of a speech which what is I been keeping for so long make me smile. No wonder how Adzimah adore her so much.But I still feel a burden on the top of my head,and my feelings Keep telling me ''Don't Work Too Hard''. As a science class student I always think ahead of the future,not blinded by useless love,or fun and joy. It's been a long time since I felt un-cooperative by teammates who is the most useless person on earth. I work hard for what I want but somebody which work less can be equal to me.Fair is my middle name,either we both have the same share or I got more.I wonder if the future is bright enough for me to live in. I do care my happiness first instead of others,why eat ourselves for other's done nothing and get the credit,Unfair right?

I want it,I work for it,I will get it.!.!

THE DARK KNIGHT

THE DARK KNIGHT WAS HELL OF A MOVIE,IT WAS A BLAST!!I GIVE A RATING 11/10!

Heath ledger  which I was not knowing who he was,until he play the role as a ''Psychopatic Maniac Who kills people for pleasure"!The movie was awesome,and I felt like watching it over and over again!!

Before we went to the movie,there was an event ''MTV Asian Award" i think so,

there was Faizal Tahir,Syafiq have a picture with him...funny though,

THE JOURNEY

When less people start to cross the dark road,where man less drove to the white cloud but instead they stopped underneath the dark one's.When bravery start to take over,when courage slips in,we tend to do something we never thinking of doing that in the first place.As I start to ponder upon the plight of today,if there will be that dark parade they used to do.I hope for better not for the worst.Again as I drove around the road,that seem to go nowhere,alone I travel on my own but on the mirror there is a reflection of my family,friends teachers....those who include there and here.After driving to nowhere,I start to drove faster,...Same road appear,again and again and again,Then I stopped and gain boredom,suddenly a loud bang hit the bump of my ride,it was a crash of another vehicle,I was hit and then the stranger or a fiend say ''Why the hell did you stop"! and then I replied ''This is pointless,where should I go anyway?".Then the strange fiend replied back '' Just drive,don't stop eventually it will stop on it's own''.I was silenced by those words and make a pact to drive together.Then we drive to the fate that lead us to somewhere.

PICK A DREAM

I think I will drop my dream and pick the one that I have been mentioned.Drop myself to the advertising company.Be an independent honorable man.Being like my father,follow his steps,lead me to success.After thinking and thinking..is it worth it being a prefect.with my rebellious friends and my mischievous acts,A hard choice but Amin,amir are going to be a prefect,so by A long shot,I will try and give it a shot,I have choosed my dream.Pick one she said...but the thought stay clear in my mind,whatever I choose will lead me to somewhere.Somewhere far somewhere near,dull or clear,no one knows.I try to pick one...but again the toughts strangled me and leave it be...there I stood waiting,thinking...after a maelstrom in the brain.A path is set be...the girl say she will wait until I came back and pick one of a dream,I have a dream,everyone have a dream,to the longest shot or a near distance...everybody has it.Every marble holds lead to a different places,splits a ties,and break walls...Only it is up to us to pick a dream,sometime when we pick we regret,that is what I least wanted,and then go back to the little girl feeling regreted,but needless she gave a handful of marbles for one's taking...Whatever you take,in the end she will ask you

"Is this your choice,your wanted,your dream?",the road not taken starts here,I hate making decisions I tell you,they are the most burden,...I will be back to you little girl,and when that day come,I will choose a dream I will not regret in the end,but the question is,will the dream you hold for me last,or slipped by chances,or maybe another person taken it,I see....so don't be late...and I will pick the most beautiful marble that you are holding,where beauty in the eye of the beholder,where beauty is in the eye of me...

A PERFECT PREFECT

Another request to be a prefect...i can't make up my mind for something I do not value of...

But Miss.Salwani needs a prefect especially guys...I couldn't let her down...but Not just that .she gave us the right's...my decision about this is...if my friends a prefect than I will be one too...It's a tough decision...but I only have a choice...one choice...okay let's see the advantages...being a prefect could bring me easy jobs,could escape me from long interviews,being a prefect needs to have discipline...which I have in lacking...man...I hate making decisions...my choice now is make someone make a decision for me...also every good news comes a bad news...I think that being a prefect burdens me...eventhough the teacher will not call us often...still it brings a little burden to me...but letting down a teacher is a very unsatisfying feeling,every thing that comes has it's good side and the bad side...which side will come is in god's hand...

THE DARK KNIGHT

Can't wait for the new batman movie...



and a funny spoof

THE BLARING KING

Oh how I am a blaring king spoken of the same thing,but the truth is it really bothers me.

Life in not yet bitter,of course that is my hearts desire,Imagining my plight working the same place with my father.Guess what,he is the one that is hiring people,hiring his undependent son...

gee...sounds awful right?I can't get his trust,it is because I can't get the trust in myself too...First thing I want to make a change is ''confidence'',speak aloud just like a blaring man I am are...

speaking loudly means they have ''confidence''...so I'll try to speak english more often and hoping it will be no burden...fluent english is pretty hard,well some can write good essay's,poem but hardly speak,while some of them don't know how to write but have the best 'english'..that is my first step to succeed.Some people have realized that they have the potential to do it,but never make a step to fulfill it.Now I wondering again about the world's end...such an awfull state that would be.Each day I feel like the second needle of the clock is moving faster,a premonition or it is just me...?Day by day time passes by,like the brief candle...I have made a thought that I will drop my dream like a friend of mine did,and retrieve back the old forgotten one's,or maybe will come a new one instead,well who knows...By the end of the year,some people will say goodbye,I hate goodbye's!It wounds me when people are saying that but it cures me too...The final piece of the puzzle is almost solved,...after it is solved,I will touch the sky!

Maybe I try  advertising...

WORD OF WISDOM

"Jangan ingat korang tak genius yeh...otak kita semua sama je...jangan nak ingat kelas 4A lagi pandai daripada kamu..tak jugak"

Miss Suriani,Chemistry teacher

''Awak jangan belajar untuk dapatkan ''A''...belajar untuk Ilmu,baru tak lupa"

Mister Syawal,Additional Mathematics teacher

''Macammana teruk pun cikgu tu...kalau nak berjaya mesti hormat dia''.

Miss Wan Salasiah,Physics teacher

''Disiplin sangat penting'',Nak berjaya senang saja,nak atau tak nak je''

Miss Salwani,history teacher

''Kalau belajar mesti boleh''

Miss Mazlaina,Malay language teacher

''Very easy'',any question.?''Ish kamu ni...asyik cakap tak boleh je,cuba ubah sikit perangai tu''

Miss Rafidah,Mathematics teacher

''Diorang ingat mak bapak akan selalu tolong diorang,by the age of 20 your parents will start to leave you''so...make your choice".

Miss Aznizah,English language teacher

''Hah, ni kalau nak berjaya kita mesti ikut cara-cara ni''

Ustazah Hashimah,Islamic knowledge teacher

''Kamu tau apa yang kamu nak,fokus kat benda tu je...buat ape ambik Bio buat susah aje''

Mister Kamarul,P.E teacher

''Boleh...''

Miss Yun Haslinda,social studies teacher

''Nak dapatkan ''A' memang senang''

Miss Hariane,Information Communication Teacher

THE BRIDGE TO VICTORY

All I need to do now is just cross the bridge..and hope that I would not fall or the bridge snapped and lost but not forever...maybe I will bring a friend together...or maybe I met new one's later...

but I always need the best recruit...ah as I say they are them...and you of course...but wait...before I crossed the bridge...I must achieve something first...

HASTE

I want to get a new schedule for my life...so that I can assure my pace is as fast as the time goes...

now what...I've been missing those guys for the movie....I bet they are having as much fun as I am right now...hmm...let's see...I learned a new kind of sparring...and I have been thinking on what is my best career...Syai already make his mind...good luck with that!Everyone has the phase to set up...only mine haven't started yet...maybe I follow the path of the fate for a change...or maybe I want to assure something...It is yet brilliant that what we have lost will  be replaced with something better...that is why I didn't raise my hope on something that is far to be achieved...

but please...don't take them for me...I loved them too much to lost them...back to bussiness...many teachers and cousins even my parents tought me...just focus on what you want...what yo really like...why take Biology if it have nothing to do with you...unless you want to be something doctor related...I guess the decision is mine for taking...taking granted of this achievement...oh almost slipped...the schedule...yeah I need to get better...

maybe I will went to a bookshop to buy some exercise books...or maybe a motivational book for add...or better yet...something related to my career...This is another thing that has been bothering me...each classes makes a gap or a wall that sets us different...some are genius and some are worthless...well for the truth...it depends on your hardwork...like my chemistry teacher miss.Suriani...she tells a story about a boy who couldn't read from the first place...and become a successor...or maybe this one...my mathematics teacher..says that...she saw a ghost when she was a child...the funny part is...it is fasting month...where ghouls and demons locked up...but the last thing she says that by looking at the worst people in my classes...

the chinese were disrespectfull...and the malay's at the back are far worst...one thing that I hate the most is disrespecting someone superior than you...oh and she says...

''Dalam kalangan Hantu tak ada manusia,

tapi dalam kalangan manusia ada hantu''...

Point taken from what she says...some of us are really demons...either inside or outside...

I wonder what will happen next...

Today...school was quiet most of the time...the class clown Syafiq and Class mischief asslam is absent...

but I found something today...

Today I simply see the ''future''...

it was all weird and that but I see the future...

when syara gave us the lecture...I see her like a real lecturer...

i don't know how to say...it is a different feeling...

Syai in the other hand changes his mind...he goes back to the past to take his broken dream and put the pieces together...

I don't know what mine looks like...

I don't know if it comes for me again...

it was all good and that but right now it seems to be awfully calm and

quiet...

........................................................................................

I will make my move when the last piece of the puzzle is solved...

NEW ARTWORK!

ENVY...

I just draw this one....

it reminds me...of me!hahaha...I envy people...sometimes a lot...but more this picture is more to jealousy...

drawn using a pen tablet!

S.O.S

gee..I don't know really...the other artists said it is an ''evil'' looking picture...

I don't know why I draw this...it just happened I can't seem to draw lips!^_^

SAVE OUR SOULS

SIGN OF SURVIVAL

I QUIT!

Gee...the Additional Mathematics seminar is really tiring...!

I think I want to quit...

first the learning place is not condusive!not just that I don't understand the lecturer's complicated formulae!besides that I have no time to do my homework!and then my favourite show.!

then I feel tired at my tution classes!after all the consequences...don't work hard!study smart..!and lastly 

I am a busy man...

EMO

SADNESS-Doesn't need that now...always Happy!

ANGER-almost dead in my emotion box!

LUST-Be Gone and don't come back!

ENVY-Why should I be jealous?!

DEXTERITY-Still improving!

COURAGE-Have no fear courage is here!

FEAR-Hurm...let's see...!

LOVE-Always beloved!

HUMANITY-Still human!

GREED-sometimes but hey human!

LIFE IS GREAT WHEN WE KNOW THE EXACT MEANING!

GET READY

English For Science and Technology...

the study period which I be most relaxed...

suit themselves if they cut class and want to be stupid...

I am doing what is best...to lead me and be the best...so I can beat the rest...

Going to be busy with the whole month...

additional Mathematics extra classes every week...!

..................................................................................................

and I always imagining my university days...

Get Ready,Cuz Here I come!

YOUR NOT THE BEST

Gee...I never thought you would be stupid enough...

i don't care what you think because sometimes I tend to be selfish...be-cau-se I am Stronger than you!

and that thing will make me beat you...and I will have the last taste to achieve something...

and your stupid act...will definitely make me a better person..!

DIAM-DIAM UBI BERISI

Apa?Kau kata aku lemah?

tch...jangat la confident sangat...

aku nie 'resmi padi'...so faham-faham je lah ye...

tolonglah...janganlah pandang rendah...

please don't underestimate me...well somebody will be in an accident if you do...

kapish...

takat KAU jela..sekali sepak jo...

like an ''Iceberg'' wimp on the outside...overwhelming on the inside..!

and  I like the term 'mind over body'...

BYE-BYE

One of the most saddest song I have ever heard...I am hearing this out loud right now...

this song has a sense of lost...

please god...don't take them from me...I loved them...

MARIAH CAREY

FUTURE CAREER

Today a Career Expo await this morning at my school...

it was cool and all but being there make me look like a fool...

many Universities and colleges came to take me,..

looking at them makes me wonder what would I be?

I like art for sure...

but which one  I can endure,..

what will I want to be when I entered adulthood...

thinking that everyday sure lost me a mood...

what will I be,I have no directions,...

art is just my right profession...

but everything is art what I want is perfection...

what suit's me I think...

thinking and thinking make me feel sink,...

ah.what the heck...

just fill the form and let them check...

what await is in god plan,..

I just think and wait and try untill then...

what makes the difference UM,SEGI,UITM,MSU...

whatever I choose could lead me to KSU...

let's hear what my mom's has to say....

her saying did not make my day...

be like your father go to the same university...

Oh no..I wish to go learn at a far away city...

study here first then take your degree anywhere...

okay that could be nice..but I am hurrying to get there...

LIM KOK WING is quite nice...

but the price will force you to think twice....

leave it to my father to find me the best place for my study...

as long as my SPM is tip-top and steady...

gee...the future is scary isn't it...

but the darkness can be swallowed bit by bit...

oh dear...,I don't want to do something I don't like...

like the things I do with my bike...

I also like to travel...that's for sure...

but like my father...if he can,I can endure...

a comic artist is a good frame...

working hard...gets the main fame...

a chef maybe the best thing...

but too much pressure can leave you do nothing...

you want to go to Japan you say...

what study will you make on that day...

right now SPM will make my best day...

and hoping god give me the best way...

THE PAST IS DEAD

ahh...the past....come to think that the past is dead...to think actually it will come again in the future...I used to be mischievous when I was a child...I rebelled,..I vandalised...I beat up people...

poor innocent friends...sorry for the cause that you have to stay in the hospital...sorry...I stole from my friends,I stole from a vending machine...

I used to say bad words in front and back...I wonder why I did that in the first place...

Beating up people,...Doing pranks......Bullying....

Now I have become an independent person who always think what comes ahead instead what lies today...I didn't even lay a finger on anyone...no pranks,no vandalism,no rebel,no stealing...no punches,kicks...I feel like I am weaker than before...because I rarely use my fist...then again I could do the same today but with a twist I am stronger...but actually it was all useless....the fighting,stealing....poor others...

I am today a much better person,...No more violence,no more screw ups...

From a bad Punk to the best Nerd...I like that...

but I hate that those who Underestimated me...

from the longest hair in school...to the glasses and smarty hair....

some of the past is dead...some will came eventually...

the common similarity of my childhood and my teenhood is...

I never satisfied with my life...I want everything and more of anything...I appreciate it but...this is the problem..

I hope my adulthood will......

and there goes another chapter.......

BOOM!!!

RESPECT LA CIKGU TU, BODOH!!

THE END

No I don't want The END...

please let it be far...Time goes really fast I cannot catch-up with it..

I'm afraid it will go too fast and just left just a memory...shit...pejam-celik-pejam-celik dah bulan tujuh...it reminds me when I was in standard 6...the good times...''Pejam-celik-pejam-celik dah form 4...damn it...it slips so fast..I hope it rest for a while...please..........

TODAY

Today on P.E...we do nothing but Mr.Kamarul tell us a story...

it is about jobs...he asked me where to go when the school ends...

then I said ''masuk U lah kot''...he replied ''U mana?''

I answered ''UITM ke..tak tahu lah''...

then syafiq interrupt ''Dia nak gi Jepun Cikgu''...syai went in ''kalau boleh gi Jepun la kan...

then It keep's me wonder...teacher said exactly what my mom said ''Target apa yang kamu nak saja tak payah nak melulu ambik Bio,IT apa semua tu...

then why I take ICT in the first place...I wonder...I regret a little..but every bad news have a good news,...every good news comes a bad news...so let's stick to it...art is everything...from scrap to the good ones...I didn't regret at all being an artist...I remembered my friend Athirah said ''Seni boleh apa jer'' then I compare it to my father's word ''dengan seni,the possibilities are infinite''then I reminded by my local artist word ''Komik Umpama melahirkan sebuah Impian''...so a comic artist sounds good...

and That way I also reminded by my own word ''N0thing Comes Easy''...

then It is History with Pn.Salwani...I saw this word before..it appear on each of the new title...''Mereka yang melupai Sejarah pasti akan mengulanginya'' Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it..

phew...

Today I decided to draw ''Avril Lavigne''  photo realism style...

it is so hard...but still trying...

okay my fingers starts to sore...later...

COOL

Relax...I'm cool inside and outside...

BOOM!!

Phew...let me let this out for a while...

in 3,...2,....,1....

     Blah la kau! Aku menyampah ngan kau nyer ''Percintaan'' kau tu..nak happy seday tu kau nyer pasallah...tak payah nak libatkan aku.....jgan nak ganggu aku nyer feelings yeh...aku tgh sedap-sedap happy nieh...

aku pown tau lah..aku nie tak perfect gak..aku nie ego ker...selfish..ke itu aku...samalah macam kau jugak kan...tapi aku nak bagi pengajaran kat kau!

suka hati kaulah kau ada kawan baru ke tak...suka hati kau lah nak berubah ke tak...

tengoklah nanti...aku pun terfikir gak camner hidup ko nanti...keje McD jer...tak yah haraplah...

bila belajar tido lah maen lah...menyampah aku...aku tergelak kau tau tak...

nak mintak maaf boley tapi berat lah nak memaafkan...weiyh ingatlah tuhan gak...semua rezeki yang diberi kat kau dari dia gak...tolonglah menyampah gler...kalau kau tak suka belajar pown at least RESPECT la kat cikgu tu...nih tido,sembang,tido sembang memekik...menyampah dowh...

aku nie jenis pandang rendah kat orang yang tak ada Ilmu..yang fikir Enjoy,...enjoy..enjoy jer...

blah la..allah S.W.T pown suruh cari ilmu...orang yang tak ada Ilmu senang ditindas tak kisah kau kaya mana pown ...senang je orang yang berilmu untuk pijak kepala ko...

sembahyang pown tak tau penuh ke tak...ish..ish...ish...

boleh kata menyesal aku kwan ngan ko ni...sejak dari dulu lagi...dah jangan kacau kwan aku yang lain...

ha!yang kau ni dok baca lama-lama ni buat apa?dah jangan tanya aku sape...faham-faham jelah..

                                                                    -END-