If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009


A solid four month she said, a solid four month left. I'm not scared, but I'm worried and sad. I've been wondering what I have done in the past 6 months. One by one of us will be gone, searching for their own identity, creating their own path. We will leave our dearest school and teachers. The pressure seems to be slightly decreasing in the past few weeks. I still wonder if that is a good thing or otherwise. I know one thing for sure, it is an end and a new beginning entwine at the same time.

Sunday, June 28, 2009


What a great event, we rustle and bustle selling foods and games. It was a lot of fun and exhausting too. But it's okay, this is our chance to do all the crazy stuff that we couldn't do. Because in the near future we will step in to our adulthood and might never get the chance to do this again. It doesn't have the same feeling.

Saturday, June 27, 2009


Wow, what a memorable event.

Friday, June 26, 2009


I've heard the news on the radio, that Michael Jackson or Allahyarham Mikhail was confirmed dead, caused by a cardiac arrest in his renthouse. It is sad, because his song is so inspirational.
Many people have gathered as a tribute to the King of Pop. A legend by his name.

I've just finished my work on the fiesta, really sometimes I felt like I am doing all the work. I still got my art 'thesis' to be send in. I need to get my soul back, it's bugging me now, SPM is near already and I'm still lagging around doing nothing. I felt this certain feel, that is hard to describe, I haven't read any books this week except for the novel. That's not a good thing. Maybe.

This year is so bitter, even I can't even enjoy the sweets thoroughly. All the events were awesome but why this year, the year of the dark age. The tremendous pressure seems to be fading, that is all I am worried about. Hope everything will be fine, my inspiration seems to be lacking, and I do know where to find it. So that's why I'm must to the Daicon to find the greatest inspiration ever.

I made my own Fiesta Banner because I hate the original ones. The event is open for everyone except for H1N1 carrier. The rate of spreading a pandemic is high. Be at highest caution. And I want a new phone. That's the weekly news.

Thursday, June 25, 2009


The biggest event is just around the corner. Everybody have been working hard, one have spent their entire money, some go as far to Subang, so many affairs and the week is really hectic. But not as hectic as the previous week, but still hectic. The fiesta is a grand one this year, everyone is trying their hardest, harder than SPM's first week.

Speaking of SPM, I've lost my fear. Fear of SPM. A friend of mine remind me that SPM is only 5 months left, and I didn't feel a thing. Kind of like so what kinda thing, unpressurized and It's not over-confident , I still have subjects that I am weak off. I wonder if it's a good thing or a bad thing. Because I felt free, and cutting tuition really make me even more free.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


I'm beginning to feel carefree day by day, my spirit is not in it's study mode. I'm beginning to do the things that I longing to do, music, comics. It's been 3 weeks since I cut tuition classes, sleeping at 3-4 o'clock in the morning, My brain, body and soul need a break.
I used to have a dream on becoming a comic artist, It's a tough work to do, I still haven't found my true career. The things that I really enjoy doing. Since I got that camera, I've been taking pictures a lot, I like that too. I've also received many positive comments on photography. But one thing for sure, I like arts, I am a cultural and international people. I love every form of arts, dance, statues, drawings, pictures and such.
I wonder if I can do all. :)

Oh, Mr.Sam said that he will do an online tuition using facebook,
using video to video protocol, kind of a live chat. Hurmm, I wonder how it will turn out.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


"History Repeats."

I can predict something does not mean I'm Psychic. It is just a simple observation, without related to any formulae's, just a simple theory I made. That time after the incident, I can already see where it will take you. It fills my soul with hatred. Showing that I will not support you, I leave that memo to show you what you really are. Off course it is your nature, for being all powerful when you have your friends. But your bravery is gone when you are all alone. I can see the gap that is gradually expand. It's just the matter of time before you are left alone again. I knew you were the same fiend that you used to be.
I had always knew who you really are, remember the past, that is the history, and it will repeat again and again...
Friends are millions right? Off course it is easy to pick up one and throw out, as far as I know you, You don't have a friend, just a shadow of yours befriending you and it will disappear when light reveals.
Your blog name suits you well. I laugh out loud about your tags.

Monday, June 22, 2009


It's been almost a month since I went out, I've been rejecting all outings these pass days, stalled by work until today, I finally get a breather.
I went out to Subang Parade, for lunch and grocery shopping. I went to Sushi King, it's almost 3 weeks I didn't eat any sushi. The sweet taste of those smoked Salmon, melts in your mouth...
Then suddenly, choke. Not me but a child at the nearby seat. The woman besides, I believe she is the mother. She tried hard to stop the suffering. The woman frowned, she tries slapping the back of the child's body, she asked the child to drink a lot of water. The whole restaurant was quiet, giving a glance at that black affair. The cough sounds emitted from the choking person began to stop. Everybody is sat still and quiet, petrified, curious on what's going to happen, only the tunes emit from the radio can be heard. A calm pianic tunes, it is common. Complete Silence.
The mother takes a deep breath relieved that the item that causes the person to choke went out landed on a piece of a tissue paper. One wrong step and that could be fatal for that child.

After the having 'fine dining', I went to look for some cellphones, because now I like those fold phones or better known as clamshell phone. I found some cheap, slick and very stylish. But that isn't the matter, I saw another child, crying. The parents do everything in their might to stop that ferocious sound.

I wonder, one day we will have a family too. I wonder what would we do at critical times like this...


Life have been hectic and dread these past weeks, and time have been running fast. A huge sigh...