ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Monday, October 31, 2011


I've looked up images of my favorite artist, ranging from voice actors to singers. The same thought interrupts the tranquility of the mind. "What if" but more like " Wouldn't be nice".

" Wouldn't it be nice if I'm with her. "

The countless days of grasses that I have missed. The blooming flowers that I have turn down upon. The chances that came and I let it go by.The doors that are open, I close it back. I wonder would I ever change.

The days I've spent was more exhausting, but I've done nothing at all. Every morning I woke up in the sense of hopeless. I didn't have that motivation to be awake. I wanted to finish my work but I didn't feel like it. I've played games and hangout with mates and it still feels the same. I felt like doing nothing, nothing at all. It is not a lazy song but more worthy to an empty song.I feel empty. Perhaps these emptiness I felt was
loneliness.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


The design of fate itself truly remarkable and surprising. The moment I was thinking the same thing and out of the blue being told the same thing. But I have evaluate the terms and conditions how two souls met and last. I was a coward at things like this. That is the truth, and I am a coward from confronting the truth, I was a coward at everything.
The moment I sat silence, it is the moment where I am thinking, and I have think far. Too far that I giggle at the situation. It was very awkward. You can say that I was in deep dilemma, something I lost once, came back all of a sudden. It is quite shocking. Same time expected and at the same time unexpected.

I was confuse between guilt and pride. Between hope and desperation. It is like you want to have but at the same time you don't. I was petrified upon pity and trembled upon fear. Should or should not, it was quite a choice to pick when it comes to something big as finding a life partner. Sometimes I wish it was never happened and sometimes I wish it happened earlier. A choice to choose, to continue or discontinue. My thoughts drowned me.

I've come to know her as my friend, and accepted the way as it is though I do have a major crush on her since the early age. But I thought she was not into me and I get over it as soon as I can. I've decided to move on and take where fate takes me. I've move along.

"Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
That what you're lookin for has been here the whole time"

-Taylor Swift-

I was afraid of those words from Taylor Swift, being in that situation scares me. I just never realize that, how stubborn. My feelings are biased, my thoughts are a prejudice.

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
-Adele-

Honestly I do like it just the way it is, just be friends. I don't want to lose you dear not by heartbreaks. I just wanted it to be the way it was before. I hope you understand, it is a very hard choice, and this choice I chose with my hearts content. And I will not regret this choice as you would do. You are very brave but I believe that I am not the person for you and you are not the person for me. I can't make you happy and so do you. I sincerely hope you'll find someone better than me, someone who can truly make you happy. It was truly enchanting to meet you, it really is. It was a decision I had to make, I hope you understand.

sincerely to us
-The Thing-

I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,


"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."