If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Friday, July 31, 2009


Sometimes I felt like running away, far-far away.
Sometimes I wish I had the power to control the time.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009


This melody always calms me... some will hear it as a normal tune. But others will cry over it because they know what lies behind this song. A song becomes meaningful if one knows it's true meaning.

" On the opposite coast of sadness, is something called a smile."

Lately, there are a few people who are in the downside of the wheel. And some highly standing above the wheel. We often hold back our grudges, secrets,confessions, and other particular things that it become a fume that poison us, clouding our minds with dark thoughts. Everything went wrong. I don't know who created the blog, but the feel of expressing points of view makes one feel good, which later on becomes addictive. I felt slightly better with sharing, some people like to talk to a friend, some prefer stranger, even some talk to an ornament object. Whatever it is, we felt like we have done our part of sharing and let it all out. Eventhough some of them does not care or couldn't help but at least we know that someone is hearing.

"Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further ."

Monday, July 27, 2009


I don't love you, like I love you yesterday.

Sunday, July 26, 2009


The high tea was a blast, the food was great, the performance was grand as well. Luckily I got the same table with Osyin. My... my, non stop laughs, his jokes never gets old. With his jokes and a series of unfortunate events what could be better? This maybe a appreciation party but for me it seems to be more like a farewell party. But at least I had fun and share some good laughs with my friends. Oh another thing, Soul with his amazing personality change really gets the crowd going. At school he is some psychotic children with rabies and now he is the coolest person there, entirely a different person. Well lucky you! Overall it is a good event.
Regarding The crimson sky, it haunts me, I have done too many sins. I am not ready...

Friday, July 24, 2009


Do you believe in ghosts? Well, there are rumors about them rampaging at Semarak. And this is not your regular ghost stories. This is quite convincing, I'm not gonna take any chance to seek wether it is true or not. With that so many stories, what not to believe?
I wonder why ghosts differ between races, religion and country. Malaysia have it's famous Pontianak, the american have it's own similar vampire. The dracula. While Japan itself have it's own famous yokai's.

In other cases, our Canteen had been quarantined because of the owner unable to complete the criteria which means it is dirty. After all this years I had eaten there. Speaking of quarantine, the Hone None disease had really become a pandemic. So many learning institute had been closed. Some of the infected died. This is a god's judgement. Another sign of the apocalypse. Amy just went back home today, she is sick. Syukur and others were absent too. What bizarre things.

Thursday, July 23, 2009


It's funny how rumor's can twist itself and turn into something horrible.
Life had been good lately except where the part that people calling me perverts whenever I go, perhaps life's been too good that sometimes I forget that I am an SPM candidate. My wish had been granted. Get rid of the massive pressure, that's my wish to god. And finally I feel free, too free perhaps. I felt like I have ended my SPM, it worries me. Now I need that pressure back, just a slight of it and a massive sparks of willpower.
I've been wondering,

Good things come when you least expected.
Good things come to those who wait.

So which do I choose? To expect, to wait or to be lest expected so good things will come rolling.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


The mayan calendar ends at 2012.
There have been a few short term eclipse, which alarmed the world about this natural phenomenon.

In Hindu mythology, the two demons Rahu and Ketu are said to "swallow" the sun during eclipses, snuffing out its life-giving light.

In Islam eclipses are one of the signs of apocalypse.

So there are possibilities that doomsday will arrive 4 years from now.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009


Tempos edax, home edacior.

Sunday, July 19, 2009


Just imagine what waits on the other side.

Friday, July 17, 2009


I met a teacher whom got married when she is 18 years old, she told us some interesting stories about life. I'm simply impressed about her life. I don't know what mine's like.

Anyways today we like to talk about the genre ecchi, pornography is common for guys nuff said.
With proud I say that I am Anti-Pornography XD. I maybe like woman, and draw female figures but that doesn't mean I am ecchi. I see woman like a form of art, beautiful and magnificent. I usually caught of what I see beautiful, either I snapped it into a picture, or simply draw it. I usually fall for beauty of any kind. As an artist, that is common thinking, that's why artist drew nude people in many poses and ways. Aku punyalah skema, baik hati, lebih-lebih lagi gentlemen (ehem-ehem) and korang panggil aku ecchi wuu... sedeynyer... You guys can call me Mr. Anti-Ecchi now thank you! XD
Patutlah korang pandang slek je kat aku, ish-ish-ish,... Apa yang comel Amir?

By the way, dengar ada acccident kat highway, gara-2 x guna jejantas berhampiran ngan skolah. Menggerikan, tapi still aku rasa malas nak guna jejantas.

Thursday, July 16, 2009


Every time I opened a book, a few minutes later I will close it back. My mind is eager in it's so called study mode but my body seems be holding it back. I have lost my willpower I guess. I better get them back fast. Now I have my inspiration for arts which I longing a long time ago, but now I don't have my willpower to study which I needed badly at this moment. Sometimes I only feel a small spark, I want a whole flame so that it will push me forward. Help!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009


It's the first for me to be called by a principle (apart hundred times from Mr.Siva), frankly I was a bit nervous, it's about the so called 'Jiwang' case. Funny though some of the teacher's passed by and saw our silly affair. It was good fun, I mean a good reunion at the principle office. Hard to come by does it. Osyin told me that one day we will tell this story to our children when we are old. Miraculously time flies really fast. I remembered my childhood, when I was a little boy, then I came here when I was in standard six. I don't remember exactly how we used to looked, but I can remember our times that we had. Then it passed, I sat my foot on this beautiful school. I befriend with the principle back then. Like buddies. And I grow and live till today. We been trough so many things together. And this shall be our last year to collect our inevitable moments. As many as we could. So that one day this stories will remain in our head and our heart.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


Mr. Sam once told me,
" It is all about timeframe."
I still couldn't get the timeframe right.

Sunday, July 12, 2009


Gah! The Daicon ends today.Sob... It was an awesome experience. We departed at 10:30 AM and arrived there at 3. So many things happened on the way there. We arrive at 3 o'clock and that is when the karaoke competition start. We missed 6 events, the WeiB Schwarz Battle, The arrival of the VIP's, Opening ceremony, Solo Cosplay Competition, and the Gundam Constructor's Championship. That sucks man, I'd finally get the chance to go to one of these conventions and we're late.
The place was not as grand as I expected but it's pretty nice. I get confused between the crowds. The merchandise there was so expensive but I bought them anyways. We also have a chance to have our photo's taken with a cosplayer but god, I regret for not staying there a little bit longer. There is so many people using DSLR there, make me jealous. Gotta bought that gun like camera. Maybe one day I open a Doujin shop myself. Even simple signs made out of cardboard get good cash. I pray one day I could get a girl who loves cosplay, manga and to do all these things with me. Overall, it was a great experience.
I was hoping for that huge push, but I only got a prod.