ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

CHILDHOOD


Besides the recurring Toy Story theme of no toy is to be left behind, this time it also about the bittersweet of letting go, growing up and moving on, all the while leading us down memory lane, and what a jolly good ride for the generation who didn't grew up a with a PSP eternally attached to our fingers! What a hoot and nostalgia seeing Ken and Barbie! I mean, some of us made hem smooch before! Oh not me though, I never had a Ken :P

-Yappie-

A friend of mine once asked,

" When does a childhood starts and when does it ends. "

few answers came out, some said we experience childhood twice, when we were a child and when we became parents. And some said, childhood lasts forever.
Childhood are some moments do they? Well for the less fortunate, might be a little daunting, with abusive parents and all that. But they are mistakes of life and can be made a lesson when we grow up.

Letting go, growing up and moving on. I would say without a doubt are the hard parts of life. I kinda hate this part right here, where I have to leave behind things that I care and move on. We are aging , all of us are. Might, soon to be bloated, silver hair or maybe bald with wrinkles carved and etched on our faces marks us as scars of our battles. We will face hardships worse or at ease and experience new.... experience of course. Soon what we see on film and tv becomes reality. We shall face the future with disdain, because we do not know what lies ahead and hope that our meets won't be the last. Sitting on a stool at those 'Kampong' houses, villages and what not reminiscing the plight of our days, telling tales and our hardships from the generation to generation.

And I couldn't imagine the future where our grandchildren may live. Should I say PSP eternally attached to our fingers?

Saturday, June 19, 2010

WISHES

Bella said she wanted to be with the stars in outer space because she couldn't stand the cruel world.

Dzmah said she wanted to stop time so that she could take a breather.

Farah said she wanted to be a bird so that she could roam the sky with her wings.

Razi wanted to go to the past so that he could repair all the mistakes he have done.

Afiq wanted to built a world of magic because real life is tragic...

Thursday, June 17, 2010

2020

I am reminded about what the teacher said the other day. About how we grow to see what lies beyond.
The year 2020 supposedly to be the year where my country will become like Japan we have here today. Modernity... What we imagine now won't be impossible in the future maybe before this someone's been dreaming on having communications wherever you are or being all around the world and still being at home. Thus, cellphones and internet that we have here today.

Now we have these amazing gadgets, such as the iPhone or the PlayStation 3. Imagine 10 years from now, 2020. What would it have been, by that time I would be around 28, still young.
But anything can happen right, even now with the globalization era with all the wars and earthquakes. Can mother earth withstand another 10 years. With all of the corrupted sins burden against it.

Friday, June 11, 2010

SERVICE


National Service have ended. I still can't believe that I cry like hell at the closing ceremony. Sad, sad, sad I've been missing the prison ground a lot. I've learned so many valuable things there that I'd never knew. I've learn so many things that I could never imagine learning outside. But this is life, the up and downs of it, the so called roller coaster, the so called 'wheel'.

Now I am home, back to the sanctuary. I still cannot see what lies ahead, but now I felt like my old self is gone, a new leaf is born. I felt that whatever I am doing will lead me somewhere, our next destination. 'Just do'.

Enough with the ranting monologue. I am back, hopefully with more updates on this dusty old diary.