ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Have you ever suddenly looked at the sky and say.
" God please help me..."

I've heard the story of an atheist who said that. Imagine someone who doesn't believe in god said something like that. Come to think that I also in need of 'the help'.

Past few weeks have been 'rough', 'tormenting' and it drove me demented. Almost. Living in a corrupted city, with corrupted people, and their corrupted behavior with their corrupted schemes. Life has never been sunshine and rainbows. It doesn't rain, it pours.

Like a saying, " money is the root of all evil ". I have to agree more after what I have been through. Money can drove people insane. Money can burn a building down, split a family in two and put people on streets.
Financial problems have never failed to fail people. I was petrified with the situation I am now, that I don't know what to do. Off course I can spend my days thinking of the sorrowful future but nevertheless I was in the depth of my own. Sometimes you just wished money would grow on trees. I have to face the problem on my own. But after vain attempts what can you do other than looking up to the sky, praying...

" God save me... "

I can only hope for the best in the future. Thinking and thinking just gave me headaches. What might there are other people who faces similar horrid scenarios like these. It is pure evil.