If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Saturday, January 31, 2009


Remember when I said that Japan is 10 years advanced in technology?

I want a new cellphone, nowadays I am fond of folding phones. 

My phone acting weird last time, now it's okay. I wonder why.

I don't know if it just me,
Sometimes I have a feeling that things have feelings... get it?

When you say you want a new phone, your old phone start to broke down (merajuk la kira)
Same goes for other stuff, like a car or a motorcycle. It start to broken down and acts weird.

One day I was listening to my I-pod ,I walked down to a store and  looked at the new I-pod touch, and I was looking at it and try all the features, and when  I asked the price, The music stops and the screen freeze. 

So the moral value here is,
appreciate what you got and take care of your things.
Because they have feelings.

Friday, January 30, 2009


Regarding this post...

It bothers me because I have experienced it before.
We didn't know that we have changed.

Thursday, January 29, 2009


You know what's great about Blog... I don't know how the creator got the idea though or who is the one who started it. It is a magnificent thing. The original purpose is for people to express their feelings or opinions to this world. (Like that would work) And remarkably it works.
Not just expressing, some people use Blog for online diaries, sharing their life their secrets. Some wrote poems and books not books literally... sort of story. 
Some have things that should be shared. Well sharing is good for the heart. Well as for me, I like to share opinions and curiosity to know what people see in this world.
Like a tree, some just see it as a tree but some people manage to see out of the ordinary. 
Ah one more thing. Blog can be an online counsellor, like sharing problems and such. Different people, different view, different answers, different thoughts...
Well today I will share a dialogue with my mother.
Sorry foreign language only ;)

MAK- Kamu tak ada girlfriend ke?
ME- takdelah.
MAK-Ye ke
ADIK- Mana boleh, semua orang ada. Umur macam Afiq takkan takde.
MAK- Ha tulah tak logik kan.
ME- Ntah.
MAK- Mama dulu popular, ramai orang suka, dulu masa tingkatan 3 cikgu bagi gambar.
            Ramai pensyarah datang.
ME- Ha yelah.
MAK- Kenapa kamu tak suka, tak ada yang minat, tak ada yang cantik? Tak cukup sempurna?
ME- Hm.
MAK- Kawan kamu yang amik seni perempuan tak ada?
ME- Ada
MAK- Tak minat?
ME- Ntahlah..
MAK- Habis tu kamu minat lelaki.
ME-Tak lah.
MAK- Jangan jadi Gay sudah.
ME-Ish... taklah..

The main topic here is love right? Yeah I have a weird situation in love. No offense to gay people. Yeah I don't know when will I fall in love. The other thing here is the way I socialize.
As you can see... I will reply mostly with one sentences like Uhm, Ahah, okay, I see... just like that. And it will come to an awkward moment when everything become quiet.
The reason why today is about love is because I have just watched the korean movie
200 pounds of beauty. Good song korean Ave Maria!!


"They say motivation don't last. Well neither does bathing.
 That's why we recommend it 

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


All of those bright future of mine 
vanish into thin air...
I have been blunt lately these holidays. 
I am confuse. 
Just like sushi, You have to choose from different types of them and 
You don't know how it taste like.
You see them running around the belt. Sometimes it looked good but doesn't suit your taste bud.
I have lost my target in life. 
I don't know what will I be when I grow up. 
The right hand holds a brush and the left hand holds a black pen. 
I have lost my ambition... I can't shoot unless I have a target.
I need to know what will I be. I have to choose...


Am I not cool? Yes I am not that good looking, not hot.
I will try to improve but never to become perfect.
The perfect being was it?
Everyone looks for perfection in this life.
There is no such thing as perfect in this world.
That may sound cliche, but it's the truth.
The average person admires perfection and seeks to obtain it.
But, what's the point of achieving perfection?
There is none. Nothing. Not a single thing.
I loathe perfection!
If something is perfect, then there is nothing left.
There is no room for imagination.
No place left for a person to gain additional knowledge or abilities.
Do you know what that means?
For humans such as ourselves, perfection only brings desppair.
It is our job to create things more wonderful than anything
before them, but never to obtain perfection.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009


Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then wed be happy

Wouldnt it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldnt it be nice

Monday, January 26, 2009


Surah Al-Qiamah 7-9

 ia bertanya: "bilakah hari kiamat itu?"

maka apabila mata terbelalak (ketakutan).

 dan apabila bulan telah hilang cahayanya.

dan matahari dan bulan dikumpulkan.


I came back from Negeri Sembilan yesterday.
I bought myself a new cap and a cargo pants.
Currently searching a jacket or a sweater like the band Hujan.

Sunday, January 25, 2009


Reason why I love Japan!
When I was young I didn't like Japan exactly, my cousins and sisters were always talking about that country there, even I used to say

 "What so great about Japan anyway...?"
tak kenal maka tak cinta right?

First thing first an introduction...
major economic power, Japan has the world's second largest economy bynominal GDP and the third largest in purchasing power parity. It is a member of the United NationsG8OECD and APEC, with the world's fifth largest defense budget. It is also the
 world's fourth largest exporter and sixth largest importer. It is a developed country with high living standards , the longest life expectancy in the world (the healthiest people in the world and have the lowest percentage of death) and is a world leader in technology, machinery,
 and robotics.
Japan also has the lowest percentage in crimes. Regardless it's superior, Japan brings the Greatest Influence to the world.

The most infIuencable thing is I like how Japanese people chases modernity while keeping their culture perfectly and brings new culture while their at it.
Malaysia on the other hand chases modernity but seems to lost their traditional culture and followed the westerns.
The Japanese is still 10 years ahead of us in technology but their culture remained unharmed
Japan is a home to the bizarre cultures which bought the most interest for me.
Like the Geisha, samurai and ninja's. Even these days the japanese still wearing
 kimono's and  yukata (japanese traditional outfit)
Malaysia nowadays are going hippies and hip-hops (hik hok)  and now the latest trend is
I'm tired looking at people doing Shuffle at school, bus-stops, offices,toilets...
I admit that I used to do Shuffle too but looking back its not as good as it seems.
On the other hand the Japanese people like to be different and proud at 
their own culture.
They didn't even speak english. Talk about culture shock.

Talk about modern fashion and traditional entwines, yeah I like their fashion style from the top of
 their head to the bottom of their sole. Imagine putting a woman's hairstyle to guys. And it actually looked good...
Here I discuss modern fashion in Shibuya (Fashion city) even if you were dressed half naked
people will call you 'normal'.

From the automobile to the food.
Sushi's and stuff no need for me to explain

Student's in Japan cares a lot about their future some would go for suicide if their failed their
subjects ,exams,etc.
Talk about peer pressure... But us Malays 
" Ala add math aku 18 markah je.."
"eleh baru lapan belas, nah tengok ni kosong tau.. ele.. boleh celen ke?"

Japanese people were raised to be humble and respectful.

Japanese people lives in one community
search the internet for more information. ;)

Currently I have been studying japanese folklore which is very interesting.
Us Malays have 'Pontianak' and such they have monsters of variety like the furugasa etc.

The japanese people excel in many industries from the gaming industries to the machinery which is great.

Crime Industry
After the death of Al-Capone peeps and gangs turned down the Mafia chart. But the Japanese
 Yakuza is approximately 23% among the community. Cool tattoes  man!
And talk about painful... :o
Japan have the most beautiful stunning mix of genetics
There is a lot more...

Saturday, January 24, 2009


Holiday just begun and it seems to be much hotter here in Malaysia. Don't blame the climate, blame global warmth. I don't know what to type actually, since this is SPM year I decided to hibernate in the house under the circumstances of a hot weather. I felt like dipping myself to a nearby pool or something. Anyways today's topic is...

" Sometimes you wish you were at another place right now." ⥹ right...?

Yes right?
Well as for me, yes. I do want to go someplace farther... you know experience new stuff. Currently I have been living inside a box. You don't like being inside a box. Dark and empty and boring. When these 3 things entwine you get a blunt pencil. No need to get what I mean. I am just exaggerating right there. 

In other hand out of topic...I like the pics! 

P.S I don't know what song to put. I put sad pianic tunes but it doesn't seem to fit. Instead I put this.

Friday, January 23, 2009


Ideas can be life-changing. Sometimes all you
need to open the door is just one more good

Thursday, January 22, 2009


"Don't wish it were easier, wish you were better."

Regarding this quote...

No one is good at everything... but we must say the least that there is a thing that we good at.
Problems? Everybody have problems... what is life without any problems and yet we keep running away from it.
We keep wishing for our problems to be gone, why not wish for strength to overcome the problem.
You see problem is a part of life, you overcome it and get experience like one of those Role Playing Game which Experience is added for defeating an enemy. Regarding this topic, let's see...

Let's say you are a form 3 attend PMR exams yeah... you struggle for it's hardness right?
What about  you a form 5 students attending PMR... easy right?
Have you ever wondered why it is so hard to score on form 3...
You see, when you do harder things than the hard things becomes easy because you have experienced the harder ones right?
Same as heartbreaks... if you felt it lots and lots and lots of time you'll get used to it.

here is another quote

"I am not smart... I just stay
with problems longer."
-Albert Einstein-

The moral value here is...
don't runaway from your problems.
Kill it before it kills you.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Seijin no Hi
 ⇆ Coming of Age Day

In Japan on January 12th is ''Seijin no hi or coming of age day", which honors young people who have turned, or will turn, 20 during the current year. In Japan at the age of 20 you are able to smoke, drink alcohol, have the right to vote and get married without parent's permission. You can also bet on horse racing,which is quite popular in Japan.







Currently I was enjoying life as a student.

There were not many things that I needed to worry about. I think the good thing about being young is that you are fearless and you think anything is possible. 

I guess I should still try and keep that spirit.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


"A quitter never wins and
  a winner never quits."
Again today we send all of the forms and crannies to the teacher. Well not just that, our class have a special case in which is everyone can drop any subject they want. Unlike the other classes which only you can drop certain subjects only. 

   I decided not to chase things I know I can't obtain
that phrases keeps on rewind and rewind in my head. The thing is I hate to make a decision especially regarding the future.

The chinese students drop physics and chemistry mostly physics. Because they have their own target and drop all the burden to excel them through. But us Malays are different, we just don't care, don't know and I don't know how to say it. We make things as we go through. I don't know if that's a good thing or otherwise. I decided not to chase things I know I can't obtain and that means necessarily NOTHING. I did not drop any subjects. Even with my retarded results... let's just go with the flow..

火曜日 / かようび / BRIDE

花嫁 (はなよめ)...
20 JAN 09
Lately I don't know what to type, I kept on mashing the
backspace button over and over again and yet time flies
mercilessly without waiting. I realize that I need to make 
haste for the exam.I can already say 
that exam is just around the corner. 
Today we finally learn the bride topic. Like most other classes 
have done it a long time ago,I'm not in the acting mood 
right then,as a result, I flunk the acting part. A friend of mine 
did a good job in spontaneous act. As I walk to the front of 
the classroom and stareaimlessly waiting for an idea 
somehow to come out. But I did it and it was over. 
Then we have to do a mind map of our future bride 
and if I have the time, it would be ceaselessly. 
Then again I finished it. 
On the other hand...

↘                    ↓                     

"Life will not come to you,
you must come to them."

↗                    ↑                    

And so I was thinking, since my life is so pale and dull 
maybe I should spice it up a little.
An old friend of mine have recommended me once, long ago...
marrying someone from another world.
but come to think of it, it will be fun. Going back and forth to my 
second home and the first ones.
And maybe additional ethnicity as well. 
It would be cool to marry someone from another country.
I think I give that a shot.

Monday, January 19, 2009


           Greatly annoyed...
                                   Not that great...but inspired.

19/1/2009-1.26 PM

Today a lot of questions been rumbling through my mind like a roulette I started asking

"Do you wanna work when you wait for your results"
"What are you gonna be when you grow up"

So on this question I keep on asking it to myself.

19/1/2009- 9.05 PM

Nothing exactly special happened but something Have been inspiring to me. A blog, yes a blog. I don't remember exactly how I got to that blog but I wonder ,for about millions of blog why I come up with that blog. Can I leave it for the word fate? But no worries.

I'll get back to me.


Act as if you were already happy and that will
tend to make you happy.

Sunday, January 18, 2009


Discipline is the bridge between goals
and accomplishment.
For every disciplined effort there is a multiple

Success is nothing more than a few simple
disciplines, practiced everyday.
Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted
by the person you become.

Most of the important things in the world have
been accomplished by people who have kept on
trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
so keep on trying.

''The major value in life is not what you get.
The major value in life is what you become.''

Saturday, January 17, 2009


Please don't fall in love with me...

Friday, January 16, 2009


"If you learn from defeat, 
you haven't really lost."
                                              -Zig Ziglar-

This I do know beyond any reasonable doubt.
Regardless of what you are doing, if you pump
long enough, hard enough and enthusiastically
enough, sooner or later the effort will bring forth
the reward.

you were born to win, but to be a winner,
you must plan to win, prepare to win, and expect
to win.

the thing here is...
If you don't see yourself as a winner, then you
cannot perform as a winner.

Thursday, January 15, 2009


Character isn't something you were born with
and can't change, like your fingerprints.
It's something you weren't born with and must
take responsibility for forming.

If you don't design your own life plan, chances
are you'll fall into someone else's plan. And guess
what they have planned for you? Not much.

Let others lead small lives, but not you.
Let others argue over small things, but not you.
Let others cry over small hurts, but not you.
Let others leave their future is someone else's
hands, but not you.

Instead of worrying about what people say
of you, why not spend time trying to accomplish
something they will admire.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009


Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself
into some work you believe it with all your
heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find
happiness that you had thought could never be


When I was young, I honestly didn't get
why so many people gathered to see fireworks
which disappeared right away.
I don't actually remember
which ones were pretty
or which ones were amazing.
even if I don't remember the colors
and shapes of the fireworks,
I can still exactly remember the people
I was with on that day.
Because it's the time you spend with
someone important to you,
that day become
an unforgettable memory.

Fireworks disappear right away
but that's why it's something to see with someone.

"Time is more valuable than money. You can get
more money, but you cannot get more time."

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


If you're afraid of making mistakes,
you won't be able to triumph in life.

Monday, January 12, 2009


I decided not to chase after
things I know I can't obtain.

Sunday, January 11, 2009


How to live life the fullest?