Monday, February 18, 2013
It is in the midst of night, but the sky flashes bright with fireworks and loud bangs knocking off alarm cars. It is the chinese new year and people are sleepless celebrating it. With their reunion dinner and such. Speaking of reunion. It has been years since me and my closest friend were apart. We were all busy with our own roads and it seems I have been switching lanes between buddies. Recently I was close to a group of friends, the crazy ones just like before. New profound friends and sometimes I felt like I have neglected the old pals. And even the ones I've known since child have lost contact completely and to add that I am not likely have the 'socialize perk'. I am not the one who would start a party or make a gathering plans, I was the person who follows where the crowd goes. I was thinking, what if our paths crossed again, which is no doubt it will. I honestly don't know how to react to this situation, should we talked about the weather? Will it be a long conversation, and awkward ones or just the loudest silence.
I have been lectured regarding responsibility recently and i have to admit it is painfully true. I am not a responsible person or that I am afraid of responsibility, the effects of being blamed. It is inevitable. I want to become responsible but most times I just cant or just lazy to face it. I'll just leave it to my procrastination side of me.
Finally, I will be continuing my studies in the field of arts in parts of places that I am not really fond off. A place so remote and quiet and I cant even see life. I just hope everything will turn out in a good way. I just have to count my blessings and make some lemonades since life gave me lemons to do some. I will try to make the best out of it.
I was hoping I would met 'the one' there or wherever love may find me.