If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Thursday, May 29, 2008


Selama harapan menjadi pudar,
Selama cita-cita tercalar,
Dari musim ke musim tiada sinar,
Seluruh ketentuan direka dalam diri muka berpinar,

Pernah Dada menyimpan seribu harapan,
Pernah hati berlagu musim yang cemerlang,
Dada menjadi bara dan hati menjadi cuka,
Di bumi ini dada beracun dan berbisa.

Dalam kepahitan yang menimpa diri sendiri,
Dalam tekanan yang membelenggu diri,
Dengan penuh tekad kami berjuang lagi,
Makin cemerlang ke garis muka dengan tabah berani.

Sekali lagi aku mara pasti dada berbara,
Sekali aku bercita-cita terus mengotakannya,...


No need to wake up early for a morning bath,
no need to shower ice cold water,
no need to walk like a dead men on the morning,
no need to see damned fooled faces walking around me,
no need to bring stones to school,
no need to cross the road of life and death,
no need to wipe out sweat in the morning assembly,
no need to chase after time,
no need to hear teachers mumbling the same thing every morning,
no need to see the teachers with their angry faces,
no need to be scold by not finishing homework,
no need to ask people 'dah siap kerja dah?'
no need to sing songs and take vows,
no need to clap for the school,
no need starve for hunger,
no need to run back to the lab,
no need to complaint about school,
no need to see wide grin faces,
no need to write this...

well until the holiday ends....

Wednesday, May 28, 2008


Ah finally someplace 'descent'...
after hours of playing games,surfing the internet,plucking the guitar...
finally someplace I rarely go..IKANO yes IKANO...i usually go someplace further like sunway Pyramid,Subang Parade..or any other..
but this time it's different..
My mom was in searching for a 'comforter'..
we went to the curve first...sat seeing..
then we went to IKANO it's a funny name really...
We search for a place to eat lunch..but none has delighted our taste-buds..
in the end we went to the Cold Storage..
yeah..yeah ...i know it is a kind of like a super market..
but really they sell food too..
despite nowhere else to go..
why not here...
Yep..as I guess..the food is cold too..
So I just bought a couple of sushi's...
and a piece of chicken...
and they also charged for the sauce...
after a fine dining...
we went to ikea to find that comforter..
in the end we ride back home with a taxi...

Back home...
read comic books..
and yada,yada,yada...
tomorrow my dad/father/papa will go to Thailand..
oh He is so lucky...he always gone on a business trip..
He gets to see the world...
I want to see the world too..
Shall I follow his path..
or will I create mine?

Tuesday, May 27, 2008


The enemy is not the opponent,
Musuh bukan yang berdiri di depan,

When we doubt ourselves or don't trust our abilities,
Bila kita tak percaya atau was-was akan keupayaan diri kita,

then we have lost the fight before it's started,
Kita sudah tewas sebelum perlawanan bermula,

Often we feel the need to have someone else lose
Banyak kali dalam hidup kita ni,kita selalu menumpukan untuk mengalahkan orang lain untuk berjaya,

Maybe the answer doesn't lie in others,
mungkin jawapannya bukan pada orang lain,

But lies within ourselves,
mungkin jawapannya ada dalam diri kita sendiri,

If we really want to succeed,
jika kita betul-betul nak berjaya,

We need to have faith in our abilities,
Kita mesti percaya kita boleh,

and then fight for it till the very end,
dan kita berjuang habis-habisan.......
Believe in your Destiny
I Believe In Mine...


I Always thinks about the future,how they went..
I want it to be perfect..for this time i actually care about myself...

always thinking,...
what will happen if I fail..pehh..that won't happen again..
see you later failure,I'm moving on with success..!

Time to make a Move

Monday, May 26, 2008

ADZ tag

1. How old are you?
urr...15 reaching 16
2. Are you single?

  singled out

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
i think 28/29 yrs old just thinking

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
no or No Idea
. If not, who do you want to marry?
errr....my dream girl..
6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional church wedding?
 anyplace suitable for a wedding
7.Your ideal motif?
8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
maybe someplace a bit further from my home,hometown,homecountry...maybe
9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
 the more the merrier..but simple..maybe just 100
10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
 just simple and delight

11.Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
    of course traditional vows too lazy to make one..
12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
as tall as the KLCC or as small as the Witch doctor's house..:)
13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?afternoon
 urrr...does it really matter..guess what !in the middle of the night!...just kidding..

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
of course indoors well then again..
16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
grand....is okay i think
17.What song/tune you’d like played at your wedding.
I want to get married by me...
19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
morning or night...dunnow really..i sleep early and wake up late..
20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
solemn but light..
21. What age do you want to get married?
 Are you DEAF?
22. Describe your ideal husband/wife
 Perfect...well almost perfect..
23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
doesn't matter as long as I can eat..
24. Champagne or red wine?
I prefer Iced lemon tea...
25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
26. Money or household items?
      both sounds good..
.27. Who will pay for the bills?
doesnt matter...we play one,two,som..hehe..
28. Are you ready for married life?
29. Do u think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
30. Will u always be true to your wife/husband?
 yes of course,absolutely
31. How many kids do u like?
 3 or 4.....?(i wonder how the olden people have many kids like that's hard)
32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
  doesnt' matter really
33. Will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
 what about black?...just kidding..
34. What kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?
malaysian..or anything that is good of course...
35. Will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
 uhh...dvd..or pics..
36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?

the whole drama team..!


You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. 
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. 
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.
You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.
Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.
You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

I agree with 90% of this hidden name meaning...pretty cool actually


So...will I..or will I not...

This holiday,,urmm...nothing yet..
my father will go for  a shooting at Thailand for a few days...or maybe just one day..
Same day as always..finally a break from the 'hectic' life..
Today I just met with Haziq...A.K.A Syakilla ex-boyfriend that also my ex-girlfriend...
for...2 years maybe...
It was sad..he loved her as much as he do..spent a lot of money on her...but in the end she went back to her ex A.K.A Meor...
this situation is like the murderer's song...
just a while before he gets marrried...then his girl went for her ex..
than he killed both...his ex and her ex...
it's a funny situation...
how love is both painful  and beautiful...
you never know what you'll expect..

Sunday, May 25, 2008


Happy holiday..
finally a break...

don't know what to say...

Teachers day,
we have fun on that day,
the rain god's play,
Funny as hell,
it went out well,

Thursday, May 22, 2008



I just watch ''Sumolah'' yesterday...
I know it is an old movie,..but I haven't watched it yet..so might as watch it..
overall it is a great movie,...


Act like a sissy....

Wednesday, May 21, 2008



If I want to be a  

-I must go to KSU,Japan
-Find a different styled drawings..
-need to pass JEES test
-To be able to spoke japanese in normal conversation
-Find outstanding storylines...
-I can make ?????????¥/RM?????????
-I'll be a millionaire if it is sold worldwide..

If I want to be an Art Director..
-UITM,UTM is enough
-Find outstanding,creative idea..
-need very good english
-Need Art
-need to withstand pressure
-I can make RM10000 -> RM 200000
-It could be more than we expected...

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


Kini aku sedar kembali,
Cintaku lebih ke arah matlamat hidupku,
Aku mula bimbang akan masa depanku,
Aku khuatir pada prinsipku yang dahulu,
Bahawa ''Aku tetap Aku''
Itulah yang aku harapkan,
Semoga tiada lagi alasan lain yang dipersoalkan,
Sambutlah Ilmu daripada menyambut cinta yang bernafas duniawi,
Cintailah ilmu daripada menyintai cinta yang palsu,
Kerana kau perlu sedar,
Walaupun cinta itu indah,
Walaupun cinta itu lumpuh,
Namun...tanpa sulaman ilmu di dada,
Sia-sia sajalah remajamu itu,
Sia-sialah hidup ku begitu....
edited by Mohd Afiq bin Marzuki,2008


se gugus

stay in 4B this morning...
like usual..study,,,...talk...close the book,talk..talk...

oh the principle...
I called her  Miss Smith or as known as Mr.Smith from the matrix...
went to class....
physics...i went wrong on the graph..there goes my 6 marks..
chemistry..or chemis3.....
it's not that hard...but it's not easy either..........

so that is all....


lawaklah ko adzimah...


Where were you when I need you...


I saw my friends...
it is sometimes oppose me,..
with their happiness and never think,
about what lies ahead,
they only think about the present,
but they know nothing about the consequences of the future,
they only knows that life is a goodness without  borders or limits,
my oh my,How a fool they are,...
been trapped by knaves that resembles the rich,
they forgot who they really are,
and act like a king,'
my oh my,they look like a horse,ride by a knight,
don't they know love can't solve anything,
it brings us happiness only and lead us to the better future,
but usually they often misuse it as a deadly drug,
and lead them to a dreadful future,
is it that they have changed,
and sometimes it reminds me of the past.
where we hang out by the park,
not knowing the dreadful consequences,
but today after a long years,now you ask for forgiveness,
i couldn't speak a word but to say,
It's too late to apologize,........

Monday, May 19, 2008

Nabilah's tag of 7


Tujuh thangs about muh,

1)I'm ambitious
2)I'm very picky on girlfriends
3)I am lazy
4)I hate numbers but i like it
5)I like to draw
6)I love friends more than enemies~duhh~
7)I love the good life

7 thangs that I feared

2)The end
3)The future

7 songs for now

1)My Chemical Romance-Disenchanted
2)My Chemical Romance-Under pressure
3)My Chemical Romance-I don't love you
4)The fray-How to save a life
5)The all american rejects-Move along
6)The all american rejects-It ends tonight
7)Robyn-Handle me

7 things yang aku slalu sebut

2)Tak tahu
3)Ada hal

7 most precious stuff

1)My ''tempat bergantung"
4)A body
5)a GOOD life

7 first times

1)first time answering a SPM styled exams
2)First time entering a drama competition
3)first time entering a theater competition
4)first time bought a RM80 pen
5)first time i feel dull
6)first time to go an outing with teacher
7)first time to feel ''busy''

7 most lucky person

1)All in my knowing
7)All in my knowing...


You're just a sad song with nothing to say..


Sometimes I feel life is like a rubik's cube,...

it is wonderfull as it is colourfull,
life is "                         "

it will start unsolve,then we scramble it to have it solved,..
things will come as it be,..we will start the problem,

We need to s0lve our problem one by one,
step by step,

the solved ones is like the things we have achieved,
the unsolved ones we don't

it is daring,the cube want's us to solve it too,
it cannot be unsolved,

just like life,god want's us to solve our problem too,
don't let our problem eat us alive,

we can't give up,

life gets harder sometimes
just like the rubiks cube,....

life works like a swivel,..

we need sacrifices in our lives,

life is a fun......................................

Sunday, May 18, 2008


I've been thinking...a lot about the future,...

"You Could Be Anything You Wanna Be"

but what will I wanna be....

my head is messing me up again...

Friday, May 16, 2008


Sihir,...or ilmu Hitam

as well known as Black arts or Magic,..

the latest news is they can manipulated death using a telephone,..
or easy saying,"They could kill you using a phone"
sounds scary at the moment,..

the good side says that the more you believe in,the more it will come to you,
well my mom said,...
Black arts cannot interfere with science,
black arts is the use of an entity,.which to perform deeds for his master,

but my teacher said it has to interfere with technology and science,
they say the number which is long and red in colour,...
an outside magic,...

but speaking about killing,...
god only has the power to take life,
no human have the right to do it,...

at tution classes ,,we talked about traffic ghosts,..huhu,..
sometimes those things are all in your head,...

then at home my family and I talked about The ''Penanggal''
which is also a black arts,...
my mum said that the user pulls the head out of the body with it's intestines,..
and to tell if the person using those things,..the person head will misplaced (terbalik)
my father agreed too,...
but this reminds me of a movie,..
where the ghosts,....
let speak in malay 4 better understanding,...

ade penanggal ni..cite lawak.aku tak ingat name cite ape..
die takde badan kan...
so die wander around,...terapung kat hutan,...
nie ade sorang mamat ni buang air,...
pastu hantu tu lalu kat kawasan saham mamat tu...

hantu tu pun cakap '"Bau apa ni,..busuk betul"
i think it was sort of like that,..
it is kinda funny though ,...man I forgot all about that movie,...










Many-many "Ragam" dangling..

Today's ragam...

syafiq jadi hang tuah pakai tengkolok kat kepala..
semua siap bangun tengok jawapan..
syai tangkap gamba..tapi kali ni..orang yang ditangkap olehnya posing jugak..
chemistry agak memeningkan...
waktu add-maths En.Syawal masuk kelas tegur perempuan je...
Tapi bile cikgu maths datang semua mintak jawapan...
cikgu bagi memang bagi...tapi malaslah nak tukar jawapan balik..
Syairazi tak siap satu soalan pown..tapi die suruh aku buat satu je...mintak satu dpt satulah abang ye....
Asslam guna ayat favorite die..."Apa yang kau tak faham" lawak nyer dengar...
balik semua complain pasal chemistry ....
In the end ucap selamat hari guru dekat sesiapa cikgu yang "terjumpa"...

To ALl TeAcHeRs,..
HaPPy TeAcHers dAY!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008


I take that back,Physics is the hardest paper around...
One whole class doesn't know anything,...
Siap tanya cikgu lagi..
Pelbagai ragam di dalam kelas...

Masa periksa..syai siap boleh tangkap gambar..lagi..then tido,..
Syafiq,,...kamikaze wooo..pastu tido,
asslam just keep braggin ''Ni soalan Oxford nih"
Bella withe her CD's..in the end fell asleep with deanna,..

the teacher..."Bincang boleh tapi senyap"
funny isn't it..bincang tapi x de sorang tahu jawapan,...

The chinese..keep talking chinese,...
KAHLING-Afiq kamu tahu tak apa jawapan ini?
ME-*Just raise my shoulders up*
i just copy people...takpe diorang bagi..slah pown salah lah...
Syai slept with his mouth opened,...tukar shift ngan aku...
in the end cikgu kumpul kertas...
Syafiq tak buat dalam testpad pown,
syai siap tak sampai 10 soalan,
Amin senyum je,
Asslam pun macam takde periksa je...
Man I LovE ICt ClAss!

balik takde periksa..duduk kat lab je...
bace Blog...and go home...

Wednesday, May 14, 2008


Baju kelas..pilih..pilih...
well Afiq first time design eh...glad you all like it!
especially sesiapa yang order baju,...
asal tak buat sweater RM60 je kan?


Lately I've been thinking about "Farewells''...
What if we went for our separate ways,....would we meet again?
Someday "Death" will come and meet us,..but please god don't let it be...near..
after the spm,some of us will say goodbye,
but to feel damned,but the feel never last,
with the opportunity from god ,gave us wings to fly,
fly away from the lies of the past,


How do I get to the top....

Just climb the stairs....

really but it is so far..

it has to be far if not then you will regret it,

and why is that,..

because on the top you will achieve eternal happiness,..

am I climbing the right stairs?

we will see...

but I can't wait...


because time will not wait for me....,

let it run,..

you also will make haste by running with them,...

that is insanely high,...

do whatever you can but don't fall..

and why is that...

if you fall you have to start at the beginning...

that is not gonna happen...

so be it...

what if there's a door on the top...

opened it then...

what if it is locked...?

find the key then...

what if I couldn't find any key....

go and ask the key maker...

and who is that supposed to be...?

who else....