ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

MONOLOGUE


Take a deep breath, breathe life into life since it has become something of what a re-incarnation of a puzzle should be, to solve it? Would take a lifetime.
And so it have become quite enjoyable these days but it is not complete. Everything was put into place except for one thing which hardly touchable yet it is probably the last piece of the maze.
Sometimes I traverse too far and got lost in this lobe of some kind. And yet there's a lot of unnecessary ramblings going around the highways in my brain, but it couldn't be put much into words. Crafting it in the form of drawings would make it more difficult to understand. No wonder there's monologues in my mind. And why bother reading my soliloquy. Even sometimes I don't understand what I am talking about...

Sunday, July 11, 2010

DESPITE



Past few weeks have been rough mentally, I could get crazy if this phase keeps up. Despite some lectures with heavy-ish UK accent, he really do reminds me of harry potter. And some teachers who is cool enough to my standard, " I am the law." he quoted. Should I say, that my life is in too much drama. Perhaps too much... :/

Despite;

The state of my mind have been in topsy-turvy. Even people who went in there could get lost, there's so many things going around my head. It won't stay still and went in their rightful order.
And there is this state of the heart, which is in much worse condition. I just couldn't think straight anymore. It's getting hard for me to see what's right and what's wrong. I am blinded with love... yes, I have fallen in love... I think...

Gah, I am thinking too much stuff that is unrelated. It drove me crazy, and now I'm listening to Gnarls Barkley, what else. Crazy..

Sunday, July 4, 2010

FULL






I'd always imagine my life in someone else's. Interesting fact that someone else imagine their lives on mine as well. Us humans never satisfied with whatever they've got, always have this envious feelings towards others. Always claim the perspective of, " If they can why not me, and ended up saying.

" Some people have all the luck. "

I admire those who lives great lives. And to say that they live life the fullest. I still don't understand the term 'full'. What does that mean actually, does full means living your life without wasting time or make the best out of your life?

And so I have stepped onto the other phase of life, which is really hard to accept that it went humdrum. Far from what I imagined, far from what I expected. It knocked some sense to me that I have to make decisions on my own sometimes and having to move on. But this is life, it won't always follow your orders, it can turn inside out when you least expected. But I guess I'll make the best of it for the moment.

And so I never stop complaining about my own life and still hoping that it becomes like one of those people who live life the fullest. Or maybe I'm just too hedonistic...