ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

DE,JAVU?

                                                            THEATER-CHAPTER







It was tuesday-5.30am:woke up,preparation..
Ibu-Pukul berapa nak pergi?
Aku-pukul 6.30 kena ada dekat rumah kawan afiq...
toilet-6.05:phone rang..SYAIRAZI-hello,...afiq...

AKU-hello ha nape...
SYAIRAZI-hei..ko gi rumah nadhirah pukul berapa?
AKU-dalam 7.20..kot..
SYAIRAZI-huh..okay..
AKU-okay
making breakfast:6.15
AKU-ma..afiq nak bawak bekal pergi sana...
IBU-ambil tupperware kat dalam laci dapur tu...
AKU-yang ni boleh ke?
IBU-takde yang nipis punya?
AKU-takde pun...
IBU-hah..ambikla yang tu..nanti buang la...
..a couple of minutes more...
IBU-janji dengan kawan pukul berapa?
AKU-pukul 7.20
IBU-dah pukul 7.25 dah.
AKU-nak pergila ni..
7.30am
AKU-bye ma..pergi dulu..
IBU-bye..good luck..
7.30am:Bus stop
SYAIRAZI-eh afiq,ko nak gi mane pagi-pagi buta nih..
AFIQ-hahaha...buat lawak pulak ko ni..
adzimah arrived..
SYAIRAZI-*talking on the phone*
AFIQ-weih syai!
SYAIRAZI-huh..okay..
ADZIMAH-Nadhirah ngan aisyah duk belakang..!

SKIP-SKIP-SKIP-SKIP-SKIP-SKIP
it was good we arrived at school..around..hum...don't know..
pickup props...
NADHIRAH-sakit perut dowh..
AKU-D'shire ade..
NADHIRAH-bapak jauh..
AFIQ-mane ade dekat je lah...
AKU-tong sampah ade..
NADHIRAH-hish ko ni..
syafiq arrived....
most of them are nervous...especially S.M...
we ride the bus..
TCH:AISYAH-*compromising with 
the bus driver*
BUS DRIVER-*talk.talk,talk...*
AKU-::''Banyak songeh betullah mamat nih*
we ride we sang..we pray and oh my god..
''worst case scenario"
::TRAFFIC JAM::
damn why today...
i saw a traffic police doing his job on the middle of the street..
AKU-weih..orang gila...
SYAFIQ-Haha..duduk tengah jalan..
Finally-De'Javu.....
we arrived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
same old place...
reminds me a lot about the good past..
getting ready-make up props..everything...
THANKS TO THE CREW 
IZZI,
SYAQ 

AFIQ.CHE.RAMLI
AKU-aku dah nampak peguam aku..
          takleh lawan..aku...
          *adalah saya Mohd Afiq peguam no.1 di Malaysia*!
AKU-tu busu
SYAFIQ-apsal semua same je kain pelekat..takleh jadi nih..
                                                                    DEGAWAN NO.2
AKU-ayunye ko syai..
                                                                 MAKTEH SENYUM
we came in to the hall...
watch the same drama as us ''Penunggu Pusaka''
i was surprised of how amazingly is the ''Lambak'' And the''Bomoh'' of Damansara Utama..
oh don't forget the dramatic Mak teh..
the others were okay..
the last one was superb..and abstract..
i think it was titled Rama-rama..
it was good...the music is awesome...
we felt like losing...
ADZIMAH-weih.jom kemas barang..kita balik..
                     diorang ade potential untuk menang...
ANXIOUSLY WAITING!!
GUESS WHAT..
the time has come...
the announcement of the winners...
WE GOT 3RD PLACE!!
it is  all worth the tiredness!!
Not so happy BUT happy!!!
Syafiq got the best Actor award!!
we came back by ..ehem..Miss..Tanty car..
It was so ''sempit''
My legs are hurting..
We made jokes..we laughed a lot..hurts a lot too..
In the end we went to MCDONALDS!
miss tanty treat us nuggets and ice-cream..

THANK YOU TCHR.TANTY,AISYAH AND AFIQ & NADIA'S MOTHER!
it was a good day..but very exhausting..
gladly to be heard no weep,crying..

DE'JAVU?
Not!!
we get third place..
IT IS A BITTERSWEET DAY!!
ALL IS LEFT ARE MEMORIES!!!!!!
Cant wait to spend quality time with teachers and friends!!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Two-More-Row

Two more row...is the theater judgement day...after all the hardwork..does it pay off..!?!

If we met disaster and triumph never came,
we just sat down with a strong wooden cane,
when we lost tears will be shed,
a past of memories will be dead,
to damansara utama!
recalled again and again in my mind,
wish to start back from where we lost,am trying to rewind..
some will be lost,others unwind,
when the wind sat still,
nothing left is just a tale,
by the fools of the theater club,
which faces frowns and pale,
drinking and drinking by the pub,
again words come from the dead men,
some will moan and be heard a weep,
all that is left is for keep,
maybe or maybe not we shall meet,
like a hook from a butchers meat,...

again pityfull words of the drama team,
where everyone is indeed need of winning,
at the end thou shall hear one loud scream,
with them fools stands out and cheering,

in the end was a happy ending,
with a bitter-sweet memories,
again it will soon start another beginning,
a reign of tale full of stories...

again we lose called out by the stage manager,
were out standing mad like ''a dog in manger''
opinions from a judge which is no more than a stranger,
which is truth and lies we could do nothing but back to the old chamber,

the old chamber with lies in music room,
with enough space for the masters,
no one knows is it safe or doomed,
no one knows if we met triumph of disasters,......


Does tomorrow lies a beautiful memory,...
or just another painful scar......

cry as much as you want,if we indeed losing,
the thoughts you made is very deceiving...
unlike the others that is winning,
take for granted and started singing,..
with the pityfull girls started moaning,.
in the end still be heard a weeping,
the man were mad and started spitting,
and some to hunger for killing,..

i know nothing for tomorrow,...is it just a ''coma'' or it is full painfull ''dot''
i wonder if we happy or sorrow,...which is ''karma'',..and just leave the rest to ''god''

*i don't know what came into my mind*





Sunday, April 27, 2008

JUDGEMENT DAY

I wonder if we will met ''Triumph'' or ''Disaster''...no wonder if we met both...and let just treat them the same...


Shall we win?
nor we shall lose?



we shall see this tuesday...

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Eternal Dream

don't ever let somebody tell you...
you can't do something....
not even me..
alright..
you got a dream you gotta protect it..
people can't do something themselves..
they want to tell you..
you can't do it..
you want something..
go get it..
...........

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Choose a dream

ambition in process...

1#Manga-ka
2#international artist
3#travel host
4#the backpackers
5#international photographer
6#movie director
7#actor
8#game tester
9#art director
10#food critics
11#broker
12#uhhh...maybe it will come*no idea*

malaysia seems oddly boring...
not that i did not appreciate it..it just...is empty the right word..i like to travel and learn about others..it would be great if the chance come!
all i do is watching "honey and clover*-anime for inspiration
that show bring a lot of meaning to myself..

have you guys watch "pursuit of happyness" will smith is acting with his real son..
man that movie was like awesomess..it was good and meaningfull..
it is sad for who that have experienced it...


most of my relatives,teachers,family,friends have been overseas..
it's sound so easy..my primary target is "Japan" man i fell in love with that country,the culture..urghh..almost everything!
i wonder how hard it is?

Sunday, April 20, 2008

G O O D T I M E S !

good times huh heres one!                                          YOU ARE SO TWISTED!!



                                                        TALK ABOUT STRETCHING?                                          
                                         THIS GAME SURE DOESN'T NEED ANY WARM UP..                                                     OOH..THAT'S GOTTA HURT!
Just in case i have forgotten about the good times I had...
talk about best times are parties..yeah that is good..!
this is like one of the best parties i have ever been..and also this is my first surprise party..

it was fun from the beggining to the end...

oh please it was good and i actually enjoyed myself...
                                               LONDON BRIDGE IS FALLING DOWN!


talk about having a party which we have to pay?
but it is all worth it..!
it's good to have friends...
we eat KFC and play Twisters...
a whole meal fun!!
after the party we talk and take pictures
i think i went home at 12.00 that day..
those are the good times i had..
i wish i get invited to these parties again..
i wonder why people didn't make "sweet 16" they are 16....right?
and so on seem like everybody are enjoying themselves..
some were still eating,some were playing,some were chatting,some were watching tv,
some went out for air,some were messaging,and others were  crazy!














Smile For the Camera!!

Friday, April 18, 2008

F L A S H B A C K



                                                                      F L A S H B A C K 

                                                                   F L A S H B A C K !
5:00-Wake up from bed..damn why so early...
5:15-getting ready for the drama competition..
       -Start with the tattoo..
6:00-Wait for "The S.M" a.k.a Adzimah..
6:02-met up with Amir.
6:13-met with Esya...
6:15-*janji melayu*Adzimah arrived...
6:25-Arrived at school..seems everyone is waiting..
6:30-Rush Hour...fast phase..make up..prop...nervous...urghh...happy..!
6:52-A van arrived...
        -we ate chocolate...*stomach ache*..nervous a bit..make up..


7:15-Arrived at Damansara Utama..pretty practical 

school but nothing like SMKS4
       -Tension is rising...

       -registration

       -Prop gets ready
       -This is it....
8:15-The drama competition begin!!

??:??-Finally it's over
         -just watching...
         -others are...well...urmm...I don't know how to say..boring?
           some of them were good...
         -End of the drama competition..
??:??-The judges make their decision
         -We lost
         -pretty much unfair very dissapointing...

??:??-Moody...very moody...upset.some were crying..amazing scenery of losses..
         -some were about to lose their minds
         -Some were happy for all their work

??:??-It is Very fortunate that miss Aisyah treat us lunch at pizza hut Just to celebrate our hard             work
           teacher is so kind..how would I repay her..she sacrificed a lot of things..
           It is all done...
           and all that is well ends well..
           we enjoyed ourselves that is the most important thing..
??:??-we went home and think this beautiful scene as one of the best memories...
           THANKS TO ALL MY FRENZ AND TCHZ,.. THANK YOU!!
ALL THAT IS LEFT IS JUST A BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES

IF.......

If you can keep your head when all about you,
    are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
    but make allowance for their doubting too;
          if you can wait and not be tired of waiting,
  or being lied about and don't deal in lies,
 or being hated don't give way to hating,
   and yet don't look too good,nor walk too wise;

 if you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
if you can think-and not make thoughts your aim;
if you can meet with triumph and disaster
      and treat those two impostors just the same,
if you can hear the truth you have spoken
       twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
or watch the things you gave your life to,broken.
 ant stoop and build em up with worn out tools,

if you can make heap of your winnings
  and risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
    and lose,and start at your beginnings,
 and never breathe a word about your loss,
 if you can force your heart and nerve to sinew,
to serve your turn long after they are gone,
   and so hold on where there is nothing in you,
except the will to say ''hold on''!!

 if  you can be patient,
even all the way you lost in every drama competition,
  when all you bad luck just stay in constant,
but you can relieve every stress and tension,

  if you can win without taking point from the judges,
or get mad at them for not winning,
    if you can let go all of your grudges,
and start again at every beggining,......

                                                                        edited by,mohd afiq,2008

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

PURSUING HAPPYNESS

Life is like a roller-coaster there is some ups and downs and twist that you don't like
but the best part of it you can tell your experience when the ride ends...

No inspiration.........my life is dull...what could I do to make it brighter...
Pursuing happyness...that is what i am trying to do...
i have put all the pieces of a dream..what went wrong?
What is wrong?
I can't seem to open the closed doors...
I can't find the key..
Why go for the closed one while the opened ones are waiting for you...
...................but...
anything can be achieved from a strong will....
You must open the door that lead you to another door..
step slowly...
......?
Why shouldn't I make haste?
Why go for something big and sloppy..
when you can start small and good?
My dream is big?
really??
How big is it...
uh....big...pretty uncatchable...
so..?
Catch the Uncatchable...

When whisper turns to shouting,
when shouting turns to tears,
when tears turns to laughter,
and take away all of our fears...







Tuesday, April 15, 2008

SENTENCES OF TRIUMPH..

Take pride in how far you have come...
Have faith in how far you can go...

love this sentences...

I sensed a bad feeling...

Monday, April 14, 2008

LOVE BITES

Feel like posting blogs...
recommended by friends..shy..shafiq..and everybody..
thanks to all my friend and teachers and family for giving the best memories..
so I'll just start with these...


Love is like a butterfly.The more you chase it the more it will eludes you.
However,if you just let it fly,it will come to you when you least expect it.

Love can make a person happy but often it hurts.
However,love is special when you gave it to someone who is really worth it.
So,take your time and and choose the best.

Love is not becoming somebody else's perfect person.It is about finding someone
 who helps you become the best person you can be.

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as 
you allow them to go.The challenge is not how to
survives heartbreaks but to the learn from it.

It breaks you heart to see that the one you love is happy with someone else
but it is more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

Love hurts when you break up.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
However love hurts the most when the person
you love has no idea how you feel.

A sad thing about life is when you meet with someone and
fall in love,only to found out at the end that it is never
meant to be and
wasted years on someone who is not worth it.

Therefore,if he or she is not worth it now,
he or she will not be worth it for a year or ten years from now.

let go...