I just watched Oprah the Best Life, I don't know, maybe I'm seeking a little bit of inspiration from the experts.
The thing is I just found out what I am, they have a name for it. A Soul Seeker. Or a Soul Searcher. Finding a soul, they said that these peoples have lost their identity, or hid it with the Identity that wasn't ourselves. We become what we aren't created by emotions and problems that life throw at us. It shapes us into a Seeker, wandering and wondering if life could have been better. Creating infinite possibilities. We complaint about how our plans doesn't work out for us because we're hoping for something that we didn't have. We get mad and sad because we didn't have what we wanted. We couldn't see exactly, we couldn't accept what reality behold. Our life turned upside down, opposite from what we wanted because we are not becoming ourselves.
No wonder, I felt lost and my life became colorless. Just maybe thats the reason.
We often take things for granted, we always want the things that we already have. We actually lie to ourselves, deceive ourselves.
There are also when everything falls apart, what you plan turn inside out, your life went into a disastrous state. The first step is to see what situation are you in. Start with " Now I am still breathing." Still alive to turn things back to the course of our plans.
We also might lost something, or destroyed certain things, but to remember another lost is another gain.
Another thing I've learned is that I should create a Wishlist, I know many of you already have one. A wishlist on what to do/have in the future. And try to achieve it one by one, list out all the possibilities that life holds. And believe that we can make it come true.