ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Friday, December 17, 2010



You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.

I believe life has its toll on us. Life throws many things at us, from all angles, of all kinds. It’s not so much of what is being thrown at us that makes us ‘us’ but more of how we deal with it that actually shapes ‘us’. Eveything that life has thrown at us is a test. Be it sadness, happiness, frustration, anger or joy. It’s actually a test for us to gauge and determine what’s our level from to time to time.

You never know the biggest day of your life is going to be the biggest. The days you think are going to be big ones they are never as big as you make them how to be in your head. It’s the regular days, the ones that start out normal, those are the days that end up being the biggest. And today was something, it was beautiful… perfect!


I had one of those beautiful days today, which are meaningful days as we speak. Everybody shares their thoughts and their deepest concerns. I've realize that I am a good listener, but a bad sharer. I often kept things for myself, I don't know why but it poisoned me like it did the other day. It was fun riding pointlessly sharing tears of life and laugh at the side of it.
We talked about marriage, family affairs and love. I actually have no idea how challenging their life can be with all the divorce and broken families. But they have face it and clearly they have become stronger. Well, everyone is hoping for a life without pain but pain is there for a reason.

Life's like that. No matter how bad things are, u just gotta go on and live with it. keep on plastering a smile when u face the world eventhough deep inside u know for sure that ur soul has been dead long time ago. Believe that there is always happy endings. We are facing towards adulthood now, the do's and don't. It's seems like it was yesterday, that I was in standard 6. Now all grown up.

Childhood is the time when we can build castles in the sky, see elephants and monkeys in the clouds, play with tadpoles, jump on our matresses to our heart's delight, ask why the sky is blue, roll in the dirt, and play with trucks and dolls; it is a time when memories are made and friendships established.

Some said that our childhood is the beginning of our creative nature and ambitious desire to enjoy life and succeed in it. In childhood we find the essential and fundamental ingredients for a healthy life.

We could learn from them.. Children have neither past nor future; they enjoy the present, which very few of us do..

I've always been scared of the future, but sometimes for a short moment I felt optimistic about it.

But It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose. Some days the whole world seems upside down. And then some how, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again. Life's roller coaster. We all just have to Hang tight.

We love different things and different people, and sometimes it is hard to understand why other people love the things they do. But at the end of the day we are all united by one fact: our little hearts can get broken by those we love, and they often do. And when they do, we can't help but sing about it.


What if the person that u love doesn’t love u back the way u want it to be? Would it be worth to love someone without expecting anything in return? Even the least we could expect is to love me the way i love u? And within the same period of time, u met someone else that u like/fancy and that someone likes u back, probably there’s a chance of something might develop from there? Which way would u choose? Round the circle and back to square one?

Have u ever been caught in such situation? Where u have to choose. Make the ultimate choice on which way to go. To stay or to leave. To hold on or to let go. Well, i guess everyone has their own reason for the choice that they have to make. It's either for the sake of themselves or for the sake of everyone around them. Is it worth gambling such risk? Probably it is. Even for short term happiness. And it would be a lifetime bonus for long term happiness. Lucky bastards. And who wouldn't want that?

But the question is, would u ever know whether u make the right choice? Such risk.

5 comments:

Nadhirah Z said...

:')

nblhmdn said...

i love this post. i love you guys to bits <3

zmh said...

tiru dyrah > :')

zmh said...

We make all sorts of decisions and choices everyday and we end up doing things; some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could relieve over and over again. But all of these make us for who we are. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be who we are now so just live, make mistakes, learn from them and never doubt who you are, where you've been and where you're going.

-Tumblr.

Enigma said...

dydy- dyrah dah besa kan, jgn nanges.
nblhmdn- we love you to bits too.
zmh- yes itu dia.