ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


Look at me, look at me in the eye and tell youself. Don't mind my british accent. Now I'm asking you, are you really honest about your feelings? Maybe you did all these things, as a term of distraction. See, you even talk to yourself now. What are you doing exactly, and why do you feel that way. Have you regretted something in the past or are you hoping for something in the future. Or is it the present that you most unaware of? Have you done something wrong?
Why are infected with guilt and why are you are all like this?
All torn up into shreds.

You want to know who I am?
Well, lad, I am your subconscious.

I'm the one who's minding the mind.
I am independent, unlike you,

I have a purpose.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

subconscious.interesting indeed.
but nothing controls yourself but you.u can answer your own question if its you who created it.
you are,your own self owner.
tho i take simplest example.
saw your avatar?.the lips behind the red painted is just a simple plain lips.no?.but 'you' make it looks sad,jokerish,and full of questions just by putting a simple picture edit on it.yes?.its 'you' who control what urself created.
hear me,do yourself a favor my fren.
stop questioning for everything u saw,for everything your facing,for everything is not coming true.because none of us will have the answer for it.for whom send the next comment talking about how to solve this that is just a matter of fact pure lies,nothing but lies..why?if its the answer you've been seeking for,wouldn't it makes you stop questioning and confusing yourself.
what you need to do is create your own inspiration.face probs like a joyful person you are before.facing problems by laughing your saliva out and do it like a man.a cool one.remember?
what you get now is what you having.and what you having now is not all people has it.get it?
live.your.life.day.by.day.
there's nothing to rush.but do it in the right path.
i am no one to judge.but you are who you are.
look through your older post my fren.one by one.
wasn't before you have so little questions about.your.life?.and it started to get more and more becos u wanted too.
wasn't b4 you enjoyed so much being in taekwondo and u love being in ur skul cause you feel alive?wasn't b4 u was happy u get into theater and drama because you do your part and you having best fren ever?
its in you.only you knows.

Enigma said...

Thank you for you kind words dear stranger,
I believe you were right, I was the one who created those rambling questions, I was the one who created another part of myself. I'm the one who created a monster within me.

In my past life undeniably I was happy but it's not always clouds and rainbows, sometimes it rains in my world but no one sees it.
In my past life, I was in a story book, a fairytale on its own.
But as soon as I stepped in into the new phase of life, I've faced a stranger named reality.
It's not that he is not kind, he's a kind person but not all the time, sometimes he's too honest. And sometimes he beats me till I bleed. And sometimes he helps me to stand up and sometimes he pushes me down.
But that it is, it's reality. He helps me to realize and remember where am I standing at. So I can battle with the weapons that I already have.

I realize that you need this two to create the perfect life.
Fairytales and Reality.

You can dream, believe it and make your dreams reality.
That is what I'm doing right now, and that is what my friends are chasing. All of us.

I have to move on, accepting the past as a memory and helps me push forward into reality.
It's not that I'm confused, it's the way that I have to understand myself.
Yes I love my moments at school, it was the moment I can relive again. But I don't want to repeat the same mistake of not spending those valuable time wisely.
As I am doing now with what I have, an one day I'll miss this moment as well just like I miss my life at school.
I'll go with the flow but at the same time I'll try to change the course of the river so that it won't be a waterfall of disappointment at the end. Building bridges to endless dreams.

Anonymous said...

like i said.
nothing but the truth for the one who says,but it lays as lies for the others indeed.
you keep going on with your life and there's nothing wrong with it.
but the only thing that push u forward is yourself.your own charisma and your imagination/fairytale comes after it.
and yes,not always a rainbow shines.
like how i always tell to people.
you don't tell people that you failed a thousand times.but you tell people you found a thousand ways that can cause failure.
you can fight for everything people throw at you.
but you are nothing but a human.
for whatever you think you strong enough to face,know that there's nothing will allow you to be strong unless the Almighty allows it.
1.pray.
2.believe in Him
3.DO IT.
i wont be long here to stay as stranger which i am not.
and we may not talk alot anymore as time past by.
and when times comes.all left is your memory.
the time you wasted to read my comment.actually gives you alot of benifit.
the time that you wasted in the past teach you alot for today to face.
Muhammad never let her followers to regret.
until then,soon or never.

Enigma said...

Thank you again for your encouraging words, though reading your comment were most beneficial.
I'll be waiting upon the time where you will appear behind the shadows, phantom.
And I reckon you are a ghost from a familiar past.

Phantom said...

phantom.
dearly,it suits me.
as I once a phantom before.was i not?
should i name myself a phantom?
then a phantom you befriend with.yes?
i am not far not close.as a distance that was judge by myself.
we shall talk again.if i live by the next day to read your tale to tell.
remember this enigma.

darkness,is not assuming something bad or collaborate with evil.
its just,a place,without light.

you can applied it to/on anywhere you want,but its best suits to a person's heart.

until then,soon or never.

Enigma said...

You should, you once played a role as a phantom does not? As you are now playing the same role again.

With your undying memories, and thou shall see how this life is reconstructed. As I am to build it.

The curiosity will unbound and when the time is ripe, I shall see a guardian angel or maybe a dark shadow, shall I not.

Until then.