ここは唯一の真実を言える場所なら、
偏らずに自分の思いを全て言います。

If only this is the place where I can say the truth,
without any prejudice I will say everything I feel.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

THE LAST PAGE


Dari tadi aku dok nyanyi lagu Graduation tu je...


Today is the last day of SPM, the feeling is unexplainable. Happy entwines with sadness. I really cant focus on the last paper. One by one people, went out. Stay by estrella playing in my mind, I don't want you to go, please stay... I give up and went out as well. I hear screams of freedom, "SPM dah habis..
Things just end like that, people came back home, some without saying a word. No one cried today, happy smiles. We went to the Mcdonalds for a lunch and do crazy stuff since it is the last day that we spent together in the school uniform. It kinda spoiled with all the section 10 school and other people, we would like to have it for our own just for one day.
It was like a reunion, we didn't talk about the future that much, only about the time, present and how to spend it.
We also do crazy things, these moments were begging me for a camera, and at this moment I don't have one.
I bring the book that teacher gave me, since I will not use it anymore. I decided to give everyone to write on it. It was funny when Munir didn't realize that there will be no school next year. He was like,

" Fuck, tahun depan tak sekolah dah kan? Baru aku sedar."

It is okay, we are enjoying ourselves back then. Good laughs, anything we do will end up saying,

" Takpe, last day....."

The farewell was like other ordinary farewell, we say good luck and stay in touch. We went back home and it ends just like that.
Back home, in my room, I open the book and read it. And yeah it touched me deeply, very deeply. Like an arrow pierced into my heart one by one. It is painful when you're realize that the wielder of the bow is no longer there. But I felt alive because the arrows shot were most meaningful. Even just short words, like; " Aku tak tahu apa nak tulis."
It bought me a large impact, I imagine their faces. It was mesmerizing. I didn't realize how much I love you guys till then. I wish there were more people wrote in that book. Because I like it so much. It produce so much inspiration.
In my prayers, I actually felt like crying. For the first time, my tear duct was like beginning to explode. I try to cry but I can't maybe I am too happy, not because SPM is over but the time we spent were like no other. I pray with all my heart for my friends, I want them to be happy as well.

This school, the time that we shared, the lesson that we learned were infinite. The syllabus of life, everything in school was great like Fuck. (okay have to use that as an impression of extreme) The school had done many things, it gave us friends, it gave us precious memories. Although sometimes it is harsh, some people changed along the way but we get back together.
If I'd get the chance, I would so relive this moment again.
Honestly, I am not satisfied. I felt like my time in school wasn't enough. I want more.
Writing this makes me sad and miss you guys so much more.
All the best in life guys, stay in touch okay, don't forget the precious time.


Baru aku sedar kat depan buku tu ada tulis,

" Time is the coin of your life, it is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. "

" Afiq, eventhough the school's done, But we still can meet again, aint?"

" Pasni study elok2 untuk masuk Universiti plak, gooD LUCK."

" I had so many precious memories with you. Classmates since 2004.' (ni aku tanya kau haha). You're one of a kind, and honestly aku suka nak cakap apa2 dgn kau. Share thoughts, etc. ♡ U!
Ingat aku always!"

" We'll meet again someday and reminisce (how do we spell this?) our school moments. and laugh. We wont talk about the weather."

" Well, you're the first for a guyfriend to me, Anyway, thanks for making me laugh and feeling cheerful. "

" Thx tu you, sekarang aku lebih mendalami lagi minat melukis nih. Keep up da good works!!"

" Ya gonna shine! And do great things in life!

" I ♥ BOYS THAT RECYCLE! "

" Be happy 4 who u are, smile always "

" Try to have fun in life man. Life is short so enjoy it as much as you can. "

" Its been so long. that u have been my bestfren, I love u man!! (not gay)"

" Kahwin jgn lupa jemput! Hahahaha"

" Hokhok!! membe dr skola rendah. "

These are extract from The Book. I'll say those are quotes from ordinary people with extraordinary school life. You guys are like no other. And I can't wish it any better.

WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER, ONCE WE KNOW
THAT WE ARE, WE ARE STAR AND WE SEE THAT.

ONCE A FOURIANS ALWAYS A FOURIANS

WHAT HAPPENS AT SECTION 4 STAYS
IN SECTION 4

7 comments:

Servant of Allah said...

emo giler siot...ahhaahahahah

dzmh said...

this should go into the school magazine.

Enigma said...

Waktu emo la best tulis blog, betul x dzmah?
I've asked bella the same question

Bellasd said...

agree with zmah! really should.
hmm this post best :') sedih lahh.


oh ya best time emo. macam kau honest dengan diri kau.

dzmh said...

betul tak dzmah? haaaa perli ke? youre good with words blhla. aku, renung screen lama2 pun nothing come out right.

ikina said...

even if its long, it's still is a good speech..
and who's complaining?

all i want to say is that it really moved me
like i said in ur book, thanks for everything.

Enigma said...

I type it with all my heart...