I have not watched romance movies in a long time, I remember my previous was with the guys night out where we decided to choose a romantic movie. I watched 'Her' the movie where this guy fell in love with an artificial intelligence, a little late but something to fill my boredom on the first day of the new semester, I was at my bed with nothing to do. Watched it and it was a brilliant movie with a brilliant concept, after a while it made me think, it makes me sad on how much the movie can relate to me. I was this guy who always judge aesthetically, I might be a wee bit perfectionists. I have been single for over 5 years, love come and go, sometimes I've met people that I liked or even loved but never the will to say it to them, and sometimes people liked and loved me just as I like someone, all I have rejected, not because that I don't love them, but I was motivated that there is a better person somewhere out there, that in the future I would have this perfect girlfriend, and I know that it is impossible but I did, I did believe that predicament, that I've hurt people with feelings for me, that I've hurt myself.
Come to think that I've always prayed to god to match me up with somebody's worthy, someone perfect, and I'm afraid that god had granted this wish of mine and I have rejected it, maybe across the people that I have denied love would be the right one and in the future that I live a happy life. It's like when you're out shopping and you found a lot of things that you've wanted but you can only spend on one, so you walked around thinking that there is going to be a cheaper price from what I wanted, the thing about love and life is that you can never go back, when things have passed it will pass. And you can only do either to forget or to regret. Another thing that you don't know is whether these choices you've made would be the right one. What it could have been if you went the other way around.