At times I wonder what is the purpose of this and that. Why does it happen and why am I am always involved in the problems that my social circle make. There were times I felt really angry, and some moment I felt disgust with what is all that happening around me. A few moments I endure pain which is uncertain, not to the heart but to the head. It is like gears and bolts in my brain never put to rest, always go back and forth on the same ordeal. Thus it leads the body is such distress, strain and unsettling nerves. I am thinking about what I am thinking.
" Forcing laughters faking smiles, same old tired lonely place, walls of insincerity. "
-taylor swift-
There were phases where I felt the world was not in order, where the system does not cope and when the laws were breakable. Maybe it is just that this city is corrupted, and I am living in a corrupted system, enforced by corrupted laws, and forcing me to corrupt.
But there are also phases where It felt calm, secure and at peace.
Maybe this is just a test to see where I can put my head in order. Organizing my life back, and restore the peace within. Maybe I've just got to smile more.'
3 comments:
i miss talking to you
im not doing rly good here.
i miss zmah as well.
bila bole lepak lagi mcm kat mcd dulu.
i watched yr old vids on youtube.
i ws almost burst into tears.
tc.
yes I know, we all have problems on our own.
You just can tell how much more I miss walking to school and do my prefects duty at the gate. By lunchtime we ordered spicy nasi lemak at the canteen and sitting around your table and learn history altogether. Then we went back home and live by the present.
perhaps the world soon will be like a space, calm, bright and beautiful.
We all just have to wait for that, have faith on all of us, have faith little astronaut.
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