TEENAGE

I saw an anime once, there was this person. A university student. He build this art piece for his thesis. It was a monument. A tall monument. Compiling of scraps, boxes and tins. Even wooden chairs and instant noodle cup. The monument was build high. The were a lot of keyholes carved on the monument. And at the end there was a small box with another keyhole on it. He had to use stairs to complete the so called masterpiece. He couldn't think of a name for it so he just let it be.

The day of evaluation come, and the judge was quite disappointed on the artwork. They believe he can do better. But a friend of him came. A teacher. The teacher then wrote something on a piece of paper with a black marker. He wrote,

" The journey of a teenager."

then he put it in front of the monument. The judges let out tears. The teacher smile.

The point is, why did the judges cry? Is it because of the hardship that a teenager would go through. I don't believe so, I think teenagers doesn't go such hard conditions as the adults went through. Or is it their tears of happiness, where their youth is filled with glorious days?

and why?

is that , there's a small box on top of the monument instead of large ones?

EXPECT

We expect so much that when it unable to give us what we want, we felt like a huge painful slap in the face. As a perfectionist I've always wanted things to be perfect, although nothing in this world is perfect. I still believe it so. We put our hopes too high, when the real thing isn't as what we hope for.

" Takpelah, nak buat camne." personally I kinda despise that word, us Malays always say that, although I used it often but still, I don't like it, it holds a tone of depression and lose hope.

I want beauty, tremendous inside and outside. I don't want a beauty that is on only one side. But it is life, that you can't have both. But I still want to believe that I can. And I will.

I wonder if woman like electronics. You'd really love them when first you bought it, but when the higher capability or the next gen comes out. You tend to buy the latest one. I believe Love can fade, but why there's certain love that didn't have an expiration date? Eternal.

The phone's captivating beauty, but not as beautiful on the inside. It starts to make problems, I wonder if a woman's does so. Or is it us men, who aren't taking good care of it...

UMBRELLA

We can't be so confident about the future. We didn't expect that it would rain that heavily. Same goes for the future, life isn't about sunshine and rainbows. There are some things in life that we couldn't get no matter how hard we try. Plan A doesn't always work at it's best, be prepared for plan B.

I got what Mathee trying to say, I agree on her point. That after this exam we will meet a lot of people that will influence us and change our minds. We aim for the highest so that we could prepare when the time comes.

Rain, imagine it like the problems that life holds. People wait for a transportation to go home, kinda they wait for help to solve their problems. Some wait for the rain to stop, they have no other choice but to run or wait for the problem to fade. Some prepare an umbrella, they're ready for any problems that life could give them. There are also who run back home no matter getting wet, they face their problems face to face not matter if it kills them. And other's cherishing this moments waiting for time to pass by. Cold and gloomy, but people still laughing no matter how loud the thunder roars or how heavy the rain is. That is one thing about human.

PIXEL

" A moment like this, some people wait a lifetime, for a moment like this some people search forever, some people wait a lifetime, for a moment like this."

-Kelly Clarkson-

Grab the camera and shoot as many as you like,

because what lies beyond the pixels are your stars.

They will bright and shine in your dreams.

And follows you in your road.

No matter if you lose it,

you still hold the piece in your heart.

No matter when they're gone,

they're still there and always be.

DOUBTS

" Keep your face to the sunshine, and you cannot see the shadows."

-Helen Keller-

Lately I have been having a lot of doubts in the choices I make. Everything has a result, whether it is good or bad, It depends on the choices we made. Everything can be blow to bits if we picked the wrong choice. It is like the chess game, one wrong move and you could get that 'checkmate' from your opponent. Choices are everything, it shapes you, it determines your future. Wrong choice in making friends, then you see your life fall right before your eyes. Wrong choice in career then you become jobless in split second.

I remember one saying, to make a choice and never look back at it. Choices are hard to make when you have infinite doubts staying by the line.

CLEAR

" Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clear view again."

-Alex Tan-

FUNNY

" When all else is lost, the future remains."

- Nevel Bovee-

I can't wait to see what we have become in the future, and at the same time I don't want to see it. Everyone doesn't want to but have to. Today we talked about many things, about the past. There is one moment where everything is quiet. No one is saying a word. We take our time to fill our brains with continuous thoughts, the fact that we are departing and we're gonna miss those fleeting moments.