Time flies does it, in a blink we've already reached the end of the year. We have been through loads of ups and downs and those twists and turns. And some of it have mend us to a different shapes and sizes. The choices we made and the mistakes that we've done. Time proceeds, we have to follow. I've achieved what I wanted this year but also lost some of it along the way.

So what I wanted to improve in 2011 is:

- I wanted to strive in whatever I am doing.

- I will make more friends and less enemies.

- Hide my ego and stay humble as possible.

- I will complete my artworks and sharpen my skills.

- Be punctual

- Take risk and go for chances.

- Try to make choices easier to pick.

- Find a lover.

- I will take care of my health.

- No last minute assignments.

- Start a day with a smile.

- I will stay fit, jog min 3 times a week.

- Take care my bond with my friends and family.

- Help those who in need more.

- pray more

- less complaining

- Write more in my journal

- learn to say no

Wishlist:

1) A new hard disk

2) laptop

3) sony psp

4) DLSR camera with zoom lens.

We can imagine everyone celebrating new year, some held their own party and invited their friends over, some drive along and see fireworks along the road, some went to special events, some just celebrate at home with their closest relatives, some probably strive in fear being mugged, some probably shooting bullets and bombing places, some may be battling with fatal disease, some might be having the hardest time of their life, some doesn't even care.

Years is different in each and every people's lives. Some may celebrate it happily and others are struggling to survive this year. I hope that next year will be a good year like previous ones, and may it become better.

Dear 2011, please be kind to us. Happy New Year!

Another year has come and gone again,

look around

and think where have you been,

Trace the Lines, on your face tonight

And don't forget that this will pass in time.

It's cold out this morning,

you should be getting into bed

Curled up tight, a darker shade of white.

Thinking back could be here for a while.

And it's getting harder to pretend,

can't believe it's that time of the year again.

Can you believe the life you led?

Did you achieve the goals you set?

Did you lose your mind?

Well and then.

Is there a reason you own them.

It is a season that won't end

Another year has come and gone again

Look around and wonder what happened.

-sick puppies; That Time of Year-

You know it's been said that we just don't recognize the significant moments of our lives while they are happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it's usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you've realized how wrong you've been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.

I believe life has its toll on us. Life throws many things at us, from all angles, of all kinds. It’s not so much of what is being thrown at us that makes us ‘us’ but more of how we deal with it that actually shapes ‘us’. Eveything that life has thrown at us is a test. Be it sadness, happiness, frustration, anger or joy. It’s actually a test for us to gauge and determine what’s our level from to time to time.

You never know the biggest day of your life is going to be the biggest. The days you think are going to be big ones they are never as big as you make them how to be in your head. It’s the regular days, the ones that start out normal, those are the days that end up being the biggest. And today was something, it was beautiful… perfect!

I had one of those beautiful days today, which are meaningful days as we speak. Everybody shares their thoughts and their deepest concerns. I've realize that I am a good listener, but a bad sharer. I often kept things for myself, I don't know why but it poisoned me like it did the other day. It was fun riding pointlessly sharing tears of life and laugh at the side of it.

We talked about marriage, family affairs and love. I actually have no idea how challenging their life can be with all the divorce and broken families. But they have face it and clearly they have become stronger. Well, everyone is hoping for a life without pain but pain is there for a reason.

Life's like that. No matter how bad things are, u just gotta go on and live with it. keep on plastering a smile when u face the world eventhough deep inside u know for sure that ur soul has been dead long time ago. Believe that there is always happy endings. We are facing towards adulthood now, the do's and don't. It's seems like it was yesterday, that I was in standard 6. Now all grown up.

Childhood is the time when we can build castles in the sky, see elephants and monkeys in the clouds, play with tadpoles, jump on our matresses to our heart's delight, ask why the sky is blue, roll in the dirt, and play with trucks and dolls; it is a time when memories are made and friendships established.

Some said that our childhood is the beginning of our creative nature and ambitious desire to enjoy life and succeed in it. In childhood we find the essential and fundamental ingredients for a healthy life.

We could learn from them.. Children have neither past nor future; they enjoy the present, which very few of us do..

I've always been scared of the future, but sometimes for a short moment I felt optimistic about it.

But It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose. Some days the whole world seems upside down. And then some how, and probably, and when you least expect it, the world rights itself again. Life's roller coaster. We all just have to Hang tight.

We love different things and different people, and sometimes it is hard to understand why other people love the things they do. But at the end of the day we are all united by one fact: our little hearts can get broken by those we love, and they often do. And when they do, we can't help but sing about it.

What if the person that u love doesn’t love u back the way u want it to be? Would it be worth to love someone without expecting anything in return? Even the least we could expect is to love me the way i love u? And within the same period of time, u met someone else that u like/fancy and that someone likes u back, probably there’s a chance of something might develop from there? Which way would u choose? Round the circle and back to square one?

Have u ever been caught in such situation? Where u have to choose. Make the ultimate choice on which way to go. To stay or to leave. To hold on or to let go. Well, i guess everyone has their own reason for the choice that they have to make. It's either for the sake of themselves or for the sake of everyone around them. Is it worth gambling such risk? Probably it is. Even for short term happiness. And it would be a lifetime bonus for long term happiness. Lucky bastards. And who wouldn't want that?

But the question is, would u ever know whether u make the right choice? Such risk.

There is that apartment I lived in, somewhere in Japan. not too deep into the city. With four people living inside. Two guys and two woman. Me and a calm and collected guy. A feminine happy-go-lucky girl and her tomboy friend. A playstation 3 hooked up on the television, and countless games taunts ourselves to play. Eating instant noodles and watch the girls doing the dishes. A cozy room with a heater and a magnificent view of the city below. Four seasons changing, spring winds blowing through the window, hitting the chimes with a calming melody, then the blazing summer, we would go by the beach. Eating watermelon sorbet and wash ourselves by the waves. In fall, we will sat under the sakura trees, watching those pink petals falls one by one. And in winter we would skate on the ice and having that christmas party with a small christmas tree in our house. Trading gifts. Celebrating their customs and their festivals. Watching fireworks and cheer loudly anticipating a new year. Call my friends and family back home, asking about their well-being and tell them how great it is and wish they could be here. Then wander ourselves by creating numerous new goals and dreams.

In the morning, the girls would prepare breakfast, and warm green tea. We chatted ourselves and enjoyed our meals thoroughly. Then we make way to the train station as we go forth to our college or workplace. Busy train rides in the morning while watching the vast view through the window. We had our time learning and doing our projects. Then we stop by at stores or the mall browsing delicate needs. Eating the best sushi for lunch, and make ourselves comfortable at home.

At night we bought the latest dvds and watch it together all four of us. And plan ourselves for a trip. Then we go out at the park, lying on the ground and look at the stars up above and ponder for a moment, what is in store for the future...

This are pieces and fragments of my dream. An imaginative view how my perfect utopia would be. Everyone must have once imagine themselves in a perfect life. Sometimes they're too adaptive to reality that they forget what dreams is really is. Sometimes it is beneficial to dream.

What yours are like?

I remember back in the time, where I was a little child, playing with sands and dirt, riding my bicycle everyday, crossing roads and put all the blame on the maid. Till my first love, on primary school. Learning and make empty promises. Stealing drinks and money from the vending machine. Playing those so called 'digi-vice' and those 'Tamiya' race cars.

Then I went up aboard high school, it was not much difference. This is where I can determine whether someone is worth trusting. There a bunch of drama in this period, bitterweet moments shared for five years. This is where people started to know themselves and making goals.

I remember when we about to leave that school, the last day. It was ... ... ... sad. We were literally attached to that place. The memories that we shared, the laughters the time we spent were irreplaceable.

Even at the National Service, friends there were a lot different. There we are forced to look or each others backs. We help each other out but everywhere, anywhere there is always room for backstabbers. Undeniably only for three months, and even we are trained rough by soldiers, we still cry at the end.

Until now, in my university days. I've grown so much. We are getting busier as we grow. And later on we will move on whether we like it or not. With marriage and jobs, there are slim chance to meet with your old friends. Soon you realize that new friends are different than the one you used to spent your days with. Make time for you loved ones, it's all you have, for the moment.

You will never enjoy your life,

living inside the box

You're so afraid of taking chances,

how you gonna reach the top?

Rules and regulations

force you to play it safe

Get rid of all the hesitation

it's time for you to seize the day.

Instead of just sitting around,

and looking down on tomorrow

you gotta let your feet off the ground,

the time is now.

Try to have no regrets

even if it's just tonight

How you gonna walk ahead

if you keep living behind

Stuck in my same position

you deserve so much more

There's a whole world around us

just waiting to be explored.

The world will force you to smile,

I'm here to help you notice the rainbow

cause I know,

What's in you is out there.

Look at me, look at me in the eye and tell youself. Don't mind my british accent. Now I'm asking you, are you really honest about your feelings? Maybe you did all these things, as a term of distraction. See, you even talk to yourself now. What are you doing exactly, and why do you feel that way. Have you regretted something in the past or are you hoping for something in the future. Or is it the present that you most unaware of? Have you done something wrong?

Why are infected with guilt and why are you are all like this?

All torn up into shreds.

You want to know who I am?

Well, lad, I am your subconscious.

I'm the one who's minding the mind.

I am independent, unlike you,

I have a purpose.