SOLILOQUIZE

My enthusiasm for life, my hunger for dreams seems to be fading away. There were only seconds when it came flowing in but then lost along the way. Now I wonder upon the stars whether my life had gone astray. Or maybe my mind is unwind and my dreams sway.

I wipe my glasses and took another glances. Whether the ashes that I buried. Upon the sands on the pavement streets. With much guilt and remorse, I wonder should I rejoice. Upon broken fragments of memories, or upon shattered fairy tales and foretold stories.

Thus there were moments that I have got it figured, in a world that is disfigured. Filled with prejudices and lies, and let the time slip and flies.

Upon kindness and good will, upon the walks and the stills. Upon regrets and depression.

What is it that I want? Probably the things that I rant. Infinite impossibilities that I had predict.

Only to be followed by a judges verdict. And yet I never tried, never stood for myself. To friends nor foes nor thyself.

My mind is filled with rambling questions, of how to make and how to destroy. Questioned by infinite choices till this time I still wonder and never chose. Can I control my future across the streams or just go with the flow and let it be out of the seams.

GREMLIN

Do you fancy yourself a nice person? Do you do good deeds? Unfortunately in this world not all people are nice. Some might be more horrid than an animal itself. With all the corruptions and such, the world is full of it. And can drove you sick and tired of it. Vomit

No matter how nice you have became or no matter how much money you donate to charity, how many hands you lend there always exist prejudice. Like there is something wrong in you that they can't depict.

No matter how nice you are, at least one people tend to dislike you, at least... sometimes for no good reasons. Such world eyh?

WISHES

Bella said she wanted to be with the stars in outer space because she couldn't stand the cruel world.

Dzmah said she wanted to stop time so that she could take a breather.

Farah said she wanted to be a bird so that she could roam the sky with her wings.

Razi wanted to go to the past so that he could repair all the mistakes he have done.

Afiq wanted to built a world of magic because real life is tragic...

UNTITLED

EASIER

Sigh... like always. It is easier said than done.. D:

PURITY

It was like watching something disgusting. Something terrible, yet oddly alluring. Like a house being set on fire. I didn't know what it was. My heart thrummed with adrenaline, and I panted as if I ran fifty miles. It was fusing through the line between now and the wall. It was nothing. It was something. It was the purest thing that now had to offer, the only thing untainted that I was able to see, yet more tarnished than the dregs of the world. A cry bubbled up through my chest, a scream. A laugh. My pupils dilated, and suddenly I saw everything.

I knew everything.

What it was...
What it would always be...
It was the portrait of insanity.

BUTTERFLY

"It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose."

Run towards your fears. Embrace them.

On the other side of your greatest fears lives your greatest life.

WAY

where are you ?

MEANING

Life is meaningless if you just live.